What did people tell you when they realized you might kill yourself?

[rozeske]

My dad sat me down one day, it was the day after my mom had told me how she wishes I was dead, i told her that I hope her dream comes true for both our sakes, he sat me down and said to me that if I committed suicide I will be going to hell. It would be better if I killed someone else, then I would have the opportunity to repent for my sin but if I killed myself I wouldn't even get that chance and will go straight to hell. That was it, he was done talking and I was dismissed. You would think he would have something else to say, to not make me feel like shit, to convince me not to kill myself....nope! that was all I got.

What did people say to you? What was their response to your plans?

 

[Mebius]

My dad and mom told me to kill myself lol.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

"Seek professional help."

 

[UKscotty]

Best not to tell people if you are serious. It can't do any good.

 

[Mebius]

That was it, he was done talking and I was dismissed. You would think he would have something else to say, to not make me feel like shit, to convince me not to kill myself....nope! that was all I got.

Being serious now. You see that's the thing, you want to feel important, but people just dont care, even your own family members wouldnt care (lucky ones would have actual caring family members).

Alfie Phillips murder: Mother Sian Hedges and her ex-boyfriend Jack Benham jailed for murdering toddler in 'frenzied attack'

The 18-month-old boy suffered 70 injuries to his body when he was beaten and smothered in a caravan in Kent.

news.sky.com

Just look at these two people, do they care about the fact that they just murdered their own toddler? No, they only care about the fact that they get jailed now.

 

[rozeske]

Being serious now. You see that's the thing, you want to feel important, but people just dont care, even your own family members wouldnt care (lucky ones would have actual caring family members).

On the plus side it doesn't make you feel as guilty I guess. Silver lining at it's finest.

 

[Raven2]

One time and I think this was out of exasperation, ' well if that's want you want to do I cant stop you'.

More recently 'I think you should go back to the doctors'
Why?
The doctor cant fix how shit my life is. All theyll do is give me more pills to take to partly mask the fact my life is in fact so utterly shit.

 

[thealteredmind]

didn't tell anything

 

[lostintheloop]

My dad sat me down one day, it was the day after my mom had told me how she wishes I was dead, i told her that I hope her dream comes true for both our sakes, he sat me down and said to me that if I committed suicide I will be going to hell. It would be better if I killed someone else, then I would have the opportunity to repent for my sin but if I killed myself I wouldn't even get that chance and will go straight to hell. That was it, he was done talking and I was dismissed. You would think he would have something else to say, to not make me feel like shit, to convince me not to kill myself....nope! that was all I got.

What did people say to you? What was their response to your plans?

I'm so sorry, there are no words for how heartless and horrible that is

my parents just tried guilt trip which I guess they thought was helpful. Things like 'if you loved us you wouldn't do this' 'you don't think about the impact' 'you'll ruin x,y, z's life ' etc.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I got to hear things like "You can't kill yourself" - "You need a doctor" - "Only cowards kill themselves and are running away" - "If you kill yourself I'm gonna kill myself, too (that's what my mom said)".

None of them knew / knows how close I really was to an attempt and how unbearable suffering was that made me suicidal.

 

[fleetingnight]

I didn't realize til you asked, but I can't even remember, I was really out of it when I was hospitalized

Most friends/family tried their best to be supportive after finding out, I'm really lucky for that

 

[Mywill]

"It's not even that bad, have you imagined the people had it rougher than you....."
"Just go outside"
"Go to gym"
"You're thinking too much, talk to people"
"If you kys I would end up dying too because of you"

 

[cowboypants]

My dad sat me down one day, it was the day after my mom had told me how she wishes I was dead, i told her that I hope her dream comes true for both our sakes, he sat me down and said to me that if I committed suicide I will be going to hell. It would be better if I killed someone else, then I would have the opportunity to repent for my sin but if I killed myself I wouldn't even get that chance and will go straight to hell. That was it, he was done talking and I was dismissed. You would think he would have something else to say, to not make me feel like shit, to convince me not to kill myself....nope! that was all I got.

What did people say to you? What was their response to your plans?

I had a kinda outrage vent with mom after she was really pushing me to get a job. I told her about stuff i don't have interest in anything like career and stuff.

She told I've seem to given upon life. Nothing else considering I'm pretty distant emotionally from parents.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

One time and I think this was out of exasperation, ' well if that's want you want to do I cant stop you'.

I would never tell anybody irl about my suicide until after I do a suicide attempt but, if I were to tell somebody irl before a suicide attempt, I'd wish to get a response like this. They can't stop me and they shouldn't because suicide is exactly what I want to do

 

[divinemistress36]

Pardon my french but your parents are cunts. They brought you into this fucked up world its their job to suppport you . I learned it was best to keep my mouth shut since it got me thrown in the psych ward and electro shock therapy

 

[no_tomorrow]

My dad sat me down one day, it was the day after my mom had told me how she wishes I was dead, i told her that I hope her dream comes true for both our sakes, he sat me down and said to me that if I committed suicide I will be going to hell. It would be better if I killed someone else, then I would have the opportunity to repent for my sin but if I killed myself I wouldn't even get that chance and will go straight to hell. That was it, he was done talking and I was dismissed. You would think he would have something else to say, to not make me feel like shit, to convince me not to kill myself....nope! that was all I got.

What did people say to you? What was their response to your plans?

I am sorry you had to experience this in your life. No one should ever have to experience this sort of encounter or circumstance :(

 

[thealteredmind]

ok lemme try this...

"It's not even that bad, have you imagined the people had it rougher than you....."

this is like saying "you don't have the right to feel like shit, even if you are". they also mean that there are people that are in "worse" conditions as in... I don't know... war... poberty... things like that... when you have a fucking sick brain. now... what's the point is this? can we compare war vs poverty? it's just dumb. all of it sucks.

"Just go outside"

ok, I'm outside... now what? I still feel like crap. I go out regularly, do 1hs walk sometimes more like 2-3hs... doesn't make a difference.

"Go to gym"

yeah I went to gym, gained close to 28 pounds looked better. doesn't change anything. then went running, did boxing, yoga, stretching... meditation... blahblahblah... my mind is still sick.

"You're thinking too much, talk to people"

oh so the problem is "thinking too much"! got it. so I guess... I don't know... what I just don't have enough energy? how in the hell does "not thinking" solves that? (it doesn't). did you know that when I compose music (majority of my time) I'm not thinking? oh also, I went and talked to people. what's the point exactly? I don't enjoy it man, I enjoy nothing. but yeah, let's do it. look, see? I'm talking to people, being "social"... so what? now I'm more tired than before... geez... thanks?

"If you kys I would end up dying too because of you"

... great! come with me!

 

[PinballWizard39]

Not a lot. No one takes me seriously.

I got drunk with a friend last night and I stupidly started ranting about how I have the means to ctb (no details), how depressed and defeated I felt. She encouraged me to see a solicitor to make a will/formal document stating what I wanted upon the event of my death, so everyone will all know what I want.

 

[bFre3]

I've gotten really really good at pretending to have a normal life (or at least, I hope so).

In the case I slip up a little, I can usually just pass it off as a joke or 'misinterpretation'.

I feel a bit bad sometimes for pushing people away when they're trying to help me, but usually their 'help' just makes things worse for everyone.

 

[SilentSadness]

Those are some dreadful parents, how could they even say that.

 

[Throwawayacc3]

My dad sat me down one day, it was the day after my mom had told me how she wishes I was dead, i told her that I hope her dream comes true for both our sakes, he sat me down and said to me that if I committed suicide I will be going to hell. It would be better if I killed someone else, then I would have the opportunity to repent for my sin but if I killed myself I wouldn't even get that chance and will go straight to hell. That was it, he was done talking and I was dismissed. You would think he would have something else to say, to not make me feel like shit, to convince me not to kill myself....nope! that was all I got.

What did people say to you? What was their response to your plans?

That's some fucked up logic lmao. It's always the religious types. Similar to how saying SNACKBAR before blowing yourself up will give you 72 virgins or whatever nonsense.

Your mother is a prick (she made you but says you need to not be here) and your father is a prick (go kill someone else just so that you can repent).

Fucking hell. People's brains are mashed potato.

 

[Nothing87]

"You need to pray"
"You will go to hell if you did that"
"People kill themselves just to seek attention"

I feel you, my family is religious and I used to go to a religious school and it's absolutely tiring. They always judged you and dismissed your feelings. Now, I finally learned my lessons and it is to stay silent about it and never let them know.

 

[Onelegman]

"If you kill yourself I'm gonna kill myself, too (that's what my mom said)".

That's what my mother told me. Well, her words were "If you leave, I'll follow"

My father does not know how to express complex thoughts or express himself, he lived through several difficult times in his life and survived, he is made of a different material and cannot help me much. My mother cries and makes me feel guilty until the crying stops. But none of that helps me, it only makes me more desperate.

Doctors don't understand it, I have also heard everything that has been said here, that if only cowards do that, that if the doctor, pills, work, friends... some of those things make my condition worse, they are not the solution for people like us. The pills only work for a while or suppress the initial impulse, but the idea persists and becomes entrenched in the mind. Empty words from professionals that only affirm you even more in your desire to want CTB...

I understand very well that when I leave many people will suffer, but that does not mean I can stay and continue suffering. If those people will suffer so much, why didn't they try to take me for a walk one day? Why didn't you talk to me about it? Why don't you congratulate me on my birthday? Hypocrites, we are only united by blood on most occasions, and even so, they will have the nerve to feel hurt by my departure, even after years without speaking to me, seeing me, and even telling me that they did not want to deal with me.

 

[lonely&trapped.]

My friend told me "dying isn't gonna fix it".

He also told me I better not do anything stupid and that "I better live on this earth with the rest of us" and that if I kill myself I don't care about him, my friends or my family "or anyone else one bit" and that I should make the right choice.

Just reading it out makes my blood boil. I hate how much life just loves to shit on me. Nobody actually cares about me, and when I show them I am struggling im met with hostility.

 

[Ampsvx123]

Terrible father, to say that God would have its petty in sending u to hell eternally, is to deny the absolute goodness of God! It is an abomination, and ur father serves an evil idol, such sin!

 

[jbear824]

That it gets better.

I now tell anyone who says that to me to shut the fuck up.

 

[AnneHiro]

They stopped speaking to me.

 

[Sarros]

My mom held me and cried and through her blubbering I could barely make out the general expression of being distraught that I would want such a thing and they couldn't go on if I did.

The first time he (my ex) asked if I was serious and if i had a plan or wanted to hurt myself (I lied and said no.) The second time he cried and told me he loved me and that they didn't want me to. But I don't want to be here more than I care for them.

The love other people have for me can only do so much in how much I feel loved and what my life circumstances (work/life balance, money, housing, physical and mental health) are.

 

[Linda]

My dad sat me down one day, it was the day after my mom had told me how she wishes I was dead, i told her that I hope her dream comes true for both our sakes, he sat me down and said to me that if I committed suicide I will be going to hell. It would be better if I killed someone else, then I would have the opportunity to repent for my sin but if I killed myself I wouldn't even get that chance and will go straight to hell. That was it, he was done talking and I was dismissed. You would think he would have something else to say, to not make me feel like shit, to convince me not to kill myself....nope! that was all I got.

What did people say to you? What was their response to your plans?

My husband knows I will ctb if he dies first. (I have made it clear to him that I won't do it while he is still alive.) A few of my friends and relatives also know. Nobody has a problem with it.

 

[rozeske]

My husband knows I will ctb if he dies first. (I have made it clear to him that I won't do it while he is still alive.) A few of my friends and relatives also know. Nobody has a problem with it.

How does that makes you feel if I may ask?