Girl in the Morgue
Memories of a damaged brain
- May 5, 2023
- 2
I feel like my body is shutting down. I barely pass 4 hours out of bed, if I am not sleeping I'm laying there with my phone not even watching things I like or care about, I only watch "easy" things to digest otherwise I would get tired quickly and fall asleep again. The 4 hours out of bed are divided in eating and having a brief conversation with my family with the purpose of not worry them. I have tried suplements, vitamins, modafinil, changing my diet, excerising but for this one I get really dizy and nauseous to the point of passing out, also tried eating more and healthier with the same result, energy drinks and lots of caffeine do nothing, by the way I'm taking venlafaxine as antidepressant and although I don't feel the despair and the enormous sorrow 24/7 my energy levels stay the same. I am completely sure I want to CTB but I need to put in order some things before I go. That is why I need that energy even if I can only get a couple of hours a day of it. (Sorry for the big explanation I just want to make clear how little energy I have right now)