what could I have apart from depression?

[IsThisTheEnd?]

I think I'm going to need to see the doctor and think about some diagnosis

I have long periods of suicidal thoughts
sometimes I have highs but they don't last long
I have extreme problems with people, I can't form any long term relations

I'm kind of stuck in limbo, I'm not sick talking to myself but I'm not well, I can't hold a job or form relations

 

[degeneratewaste]

None of us here can really answer this. I'm not a professional and I can't diagnose anyone, and no suggestions can really be made unless you open up in more depth, there's little point asking in my opinion, just see a doctor.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

I may not have the mental capacity to get my doctor to do anything, maybe if I had an idea I could put it to him.

 

[degeneratewaste]

I may not have the mental capacity to get my doctor to do anything, maybe if I had an idea I could put it to him.

I can understand this since I have had similar experience in the past where doctors don't really do anything or help unless you convince them things are really bad. What I'd recommend is if you go to your doc and say look I'm having all these symptoms and it's altering my quality of life, and before you go just write down every symptom since it's quite hard to remember everything on the spot. If you are struggling to identify with any mental illnesses or if it's not obvious to you then there is no point presenting to your doctor with "I think I might have X"

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

ok thanks ill have a think.

but if anyone else had any suggestions please say.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I felt.... Different. And I wasnt seeing a mental doctor (anything in that field) and didn't want to talk to my family doctor. So I took things like "can not feel hungry for days" and googled it until I came to an answer I was happy with. Thankfully for me I seems to have at least 7/10 symptoms for all my different problems so finding the one that matched me wasn't to difficult. So I'm not sure how well this would work for you but it could give you a place to start.

Edit: I only read doctor websites. Specifically case studies. So just be careful where you get your info.

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

thanks for the reply Life_and_Death, I guess alot of it is coming up with just depression

but I've been depressed for so long it maybe some type of chronic depression if that even exists, I also wonder if some kind of long term brain damage from drink and drugs.

 

[Sensei]

Have a look at this and see if you recognize yourself: A guide to bipolar disorder.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

but I've been depressed for so long it maybe some type of chronic depression if that even exists

Well, it exists, you might want to look into dysthymia.
And if you're depressed for a long time, yet then you somehow feel even worse, you might have both chronic and normal depression at the same time. It is called double depression. That might also be the case.

And yeah, physical damage to the brain can mess up your emotional state pretty badly. But you'll need to see a neurologist or a psychoneurologist to be diagnosed. You will be referred to a number of diagnostic procedures (EEG, maybe CT and/or MRI) to determine what kind of damage there might be and what can be done to help. If it's the case, there is supportive medication that helps with symptoms, even in a case of irreversible damage.

But either way you'll need to see a doctor to get diagnosed.
Take care!