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hopeless08

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Dec 8, 2023
492
I don't want to die I just wish I wouldn't be in this excruciating emotional pain and have a chance of being happy but I know that will never happen so I have no option but to ctb. Last night I was thinking if I actually had the method in my hands how would I feel and I felt terrified. I'm scared of what's going to happen once I'm dead.
What are people's thoughts on this?
Are you guys afraid of the afterlife?
What do you guys believe will happen?
I wish there was a method as easy as taking one pill cause that way I won't have time to be nervous, scared and have the survival instinct kick in. Methods that you have to do some preparation I know will give you more time to freak out and think, worry. I just wish I could take one pill in the morning when reality hits and the pain is unbearable that the impulse is so strong and within a second be gone.
That would be ideal.
I'm wondering what you guys are thinking, feeling.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I very strongly believe that once we die, we just cease to exist, death is simply the absence of everything, it's an dreamless and eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about. It comforts me to think of death erasing all the suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what. Only eternal nothingness is beautiful to me, I see so much beauty in the peace of eternal sleep, only eternal nothingness is ideal as it's the permanent absence of all harm and torment.
 
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hikikomorizombie

hikikomorizombie

Ouch
Jan 15, 2024
771
if i had my dream method, i'd have been dead ages ago🧸i look forward to the oblivion, that's what i yearn for. the ceasing of all this, everything.

I just wish I could take one pill in the if i morning when reality hits and the pain is unbearable that the impulse is so strong and within a second be gone.
that's basically what dying by gun would be like, so u could look into that method.
 
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hopeless08

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Dec 8, 2023
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if i had my dream method, i'd have been dead ages ago🧸i look forward to the oblivion, that's what i yearn for. the ceasing of all this, everything.


that's basically what dying by gun would be like, so u could look into that method.
That method scares me because I'm afraid I wouldn't succeed and that it would be painful.
 
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divinemistress36

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Jan 1, 2024
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I'm not religious but I like to believe there is some kind of afterlife where I can meet up with my deceased pets and spirit family. My suffering is the fault of a damaged brain so with death i wont have to deal with that anymore .I've always wanted to go "home" wherever that may be
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
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I believe that after death is just permanent non existence
 
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hopeless08

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Dec 8, 2023
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I'm not religious but I like to believe there is some kind of afterlife where I can meet up with my deceased pets and spirit family. My suffering is the fault of a damaged brain so with death i wont have to deal with that anymore .I've always wanted to go "home" wherever that may be
I'm sorry for your pain and suffering.
I think the same way that I would love to join and be with my beloved dog and loved ones that passed but I don't know if it works that way, I wish..
 
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Raven2

Raven2

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Dec 1, 2022
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I think there maybe an afterlife. But we dont actually have any proof of that, then it gets me thinking is the afterlife eternal? Do we get reincarnated? So many questions with no real answers and it really does scare me, hence why I am still here. But then nothingness after also scares me too. I want to avoid a method that has time for the SI to kick in also.
 
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hopeless08

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Dec 8, 2023
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I think there maybe an afterlife. But we dont actually have any proof of that, then it gets me thinking is the afterlife eternal? Do we get reincarnated? So many questions with no real answers and it really does scare me, hence why I am still here. But then nothingness after also scares me too. I want to avoid a method that has time for the SI to kick in also.
I completely relate to you
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
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I would like to believe that there's eternal nothingness, but recently I became aware of prison planet theory, and I think that it's likely to be true. Basically, earth is a prison planet, and we're all trapped in a reincarnation loop on it, forced to reincarnate over and over again. It's the soul trap, and hopefully I can escape from it.
 
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R_N

-Memento Mori-
Dec 3, 2019
1,442
"Are you guys afraid of the afterlife?"

I don't think so, at least not atm.


"What do you guys believe will happen?"

Corpse decomposition. But I feel that I was too sure of nothingness after brain is done for just for the sake of it. I don't feel sure of anything anymore deep down, but I am not too bothered by it.


What am I supposed to do anyway? I am completely powerless, like a chess piece on someones board. Might as well let the flow take me.
 
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Raven2

Raven2

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Dec 1, 2022
359
I completely relate to you
If only we actually knew then maybe we could be at peace with it and a form of acceptance rather than quite frankly going in to it blindly.
 
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headed home

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Feb 23, 2024
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I beleive we either go to hell or heaven depending on our lives. suicide is a major sin in my religion and I know if I go through with my plan I'm sentencing myself to hell but I still plan on doing it which is why I've been delaying my ctb date
 
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InAgony

InAgony

To insanity and beyond
Feb 19, 2024
131
I believe in heaven, purgatory and hell.
 
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KANCEL

Member
Feb 21, 2024
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We all know the brain is incredibly complex..

Memories are subjective.
What one person remembers in life, another may not. What's important to one person may not be to another.

No entity or being, could possibly get people to remember or feel what they want them to in another life.
All this is subjective and impossible to coordinate.

You need only look at people with Alzheimer's. If what's wrong with the brain can't be fixed in this lifetime, it certainly couldn't be restored in the next.
 
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joeschmo

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Feb 25, 2024
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I very strongly believe that once we die, we just cease to exist, death is simply the absence of everything, it's a dreamless and eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about. It comforts me to think of death erasing all the suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what. Only eternal nothingness is beautiful to me, I see so much beauty in the peace of eternal sleep, only eternal nothingness is ideal as it's the permanent absence of all harm and torment.
The way you speak of it makes no sense, and I mean no offense by that. Think about it, "the peace of eternal sleep". What "peace"? What "eternal sleep"? Neither one exists. All that exists is a chaotic universe, and it either forces you back into existence by making you conscious again (unwillingly of course because it doesn't have a mind) or it doesn't. There is no "sleep" or "peace" or whatever else comforts you. There is NO comfort unless there IS a creator. With a creator, at least suffering can be explained, and perhaps it's so reasonable that you actually choose to exist again (reincarnate). So hope that there exists a "God", because without it you can be forced back into a life full of suffering simply by random chance—with "God" you can choose not to, you can "sleep eternally".
 
wagner2029

wagner2029

Experienced
Jun 25, 2023
213
I can't believe in gods and religions.
I still have doubts about whether something remains after death, I heard that a researcher placed a painting facing up,
From a hospital operating table, above the operating table, where some patients experienced death for a few moments, they reported that they saw the paintings, but they would have to be on the ceiling to be able to see them.
I've heard of several cases of people who talked to someone, exchanged addresses, and when the person went to look for the address they discovered that the other person they talked to hours ago had been dead for years.
There is nothing conclusive, but there is no explanation or certainty yet.
 
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strangelife

strangelife

Specialist
Feb 16, 2024
357
I think there is nothing after. If you are so frightened of death, then you are not yet ready. When the life is worth then death, then you will not afraid.
 
edgar allan poe

edgar allan poe

Member
Jan 21, 2024
9
The way you speak of it makes no sense, and I mean no offense by that. Think about it, "the peace of eternal sleep". What "peace"? What "eternal sleep"? Neither one exists. All that exists is a chaotic universe, and it either forces you back into existence by making you conscious again (unwillingly of course because it doesn't have a mind) or it doesn't. There is no "sleep" or "peace" or whatever else comforts you. There is NO comfort unless there IS a creator. With a creator, at least suffering can be explained, and perhaps it's so reasonable that you actually choose to exist again (reincarnate). So hope that there exists a "God", because without it you can be forced back into a life full of suffering simply by random chance—with "God" you can choose not to, you can "sleep eternally".
Says someone doesn't make sense, proceeds to make absolutely no sense.
 
Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
433
I'm not a proponent of either of the two main opposing belief systems… the afterlife or complete non existence. For me, both positions are too dogmatic and rigid.

I don't need faith in anything. I prefer to simply acknowledge reality and ground myself in that instead.
 
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joeschmo

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Feb 25, 2024
62
Says someone doesn't make sense, proceeds to make absolutely no sense.
When I say you make no sense I at least explained how, which is the evidence that I meant no offense. but you just say I make no sense, but no explanation how, thus you just meant to attack me. So I will stop responding to you, I want to avoid conflict.

All the best to you 🙏
 
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KANCEL

Member
Feb 21, 2024
44
I beleive we either go to hell or heaven depending on our lives. suicide is a major sin in my religion and I know if I go through with my plan I'm sentencing myself to hell but I still plan on doing it which is why I've been delaying my ctb date
I was a Christian for many years until I actually started reading the Bible. I could only make up excuses and justifications in my mind for all the inconsistencies and hideous acts throughout the Bible before I said enough! This is BS. Total BS
CTB is hard enough as it is. When you throw heaven and hell into the mix, it only makes things harder and more stressful for no evidential reason. Not too mention it adds a ton of unnecessary self loathing.
 
SmallKoy

SmallKoy

Aficionado
Jan 18, 2024
229
I very strongly believe that once we die, we just cease to exist, death is simply the absence of everything, it's an dreamless and eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about. It comforts me to think of death erasing all the suffering, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what. Only eternal nothingness is beautiful to me, I see so much beauty in the peace of eternal sleep, only eternal nothingness is ideal as it's the permanent absence of all harm and torment.
I really hope that this is true.
 
Darkover

Darkover

Angelic
Jul 29, 2021
4,720
either nothing forever or rebirth, if there is nothing after death then what is the point in life, if it's rebirth you could be born anywhere in any machine in any circumstance possible within the universe
 

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