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cybertronian03111999
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- Jul 5, 2019
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The thought of what happens after I ctb should not haunt me, yet everytime it does. Logically speaking it should not, because I will not be around to see/help with the situation. To be honest, my views don't even matter in my surroundings even though I'm alive, so it is quite foolish for me to think what'll happen when I'm gone and whether people will hate me for what I did. I dont hold religious views so I'm not concerned about heaven or hell stuff, to me it'll be just... I really don't know, maybe pass out if done correctly and that's it? But this thought of what'll happen afterwards continues to haunt me. I think it is maybe my survival instinct stopping me? I'm just so damn conflicted.