I appreacate all your answers and suggestions but sadly I'm so stressed out in my head and body due to suffering that I have a hard time navigating through all the suggestions. It just makes me dizzy and even more stressed.
The only thing I can say right now, is that I have tinnitus and hyperacusis which means a lot of medications carry a risk of worsening these, and lots of medicine is ototoxic (toxic to the inner ear and hearing nerve) SSRI is especially one you should refrain from when you have these conditions cause they carry the greatest risk of worsening. What I mean is, I can't just try all kinds of different medications cause that would be too risky for my tinnitus and hyperacusis. Brintellix and especially Remeron/mirtazapine carry the lowest risk of worsening these, which I why I agreed to them to start with. I was also on Venlafaxine before I became aware of the possible danger of meds vs. tinnitus/hyperacusis, but that drug didnt do anything for me other then give me horrible sweats just from walking up 10 stairs for instance, and very dry mouth which didnt go away (I was on them some months.)......there were other side effects but cant remember them now, but the sweats were intolerable as I had sweat running down my face many times a day.
That is why I really don't wanna go the medication route, as least not until all other options have been tried, and if nothing works and I keep feeling this horrible, then sure as a last resort it can be nessecary in order jo keep me alive. I Know that it will only buy me more time.......cause tolerance will develop or the medicine will stop working after some years. That's just how it is. But it's better then nothing,
I don't think I am bipolar at all. I am never manic, not even close to it.
I am not in US or UK though. I don't wanna say where I'm from specifically, but I am in Europe.
A friend on tinnitustalk suggested Ashwaganda and reishi and I am gonna try those + passionsflower. And I'll try St. johns wort too. If their is any suggestions for natural supplements I have missed just let me know.
I don't wanna go the psychedelic road, that's highly illegal here and I wouldnt even know where to obtain these.