I often visit other websites to get ideas and opinions when regarding suicide. Most are obviously pro life and would undoubtedly argue against suicide. Quora and SuicideForum are the worst, but I keep finding a common reply that there are better options and give biased ideas that life is worth it even though I or anyone else will still have to deal with life's problematic uncertainty. What I'm having trouble with is understanding what better options are they talking about? Going to a therapist? Just talk to someone? All I'm left with feeling is why go through all this bullshit? Like for example some people like myself inherently do not like life. It's that's simple and even though I am being just as biased with my subjective experience I just simply despise my existence. I asked on a forum 'Why should I keep living if I don't enjoy anything?' and said the following: 'I try everyday to find a reason to stay but can't. All I see in my future is failure and death. So why not? Why not just get it over with once and for all? Taking the chance that things might get better but for how long? Nothing stays permanent not even happiness so if the goal is happiness and contentment and they essentially disappear quite often then what is the point or lack thereof? I don't know anymore I try to find reasons to keep living but they are close to none to compensate for how mundane and meaningless my life is. I can try to change but after a while you're already to delved into your ego your persona and there are things about yourself you'll never change. I can change my actions but how far will that get me? A successful career, wife/children, 401k, or any other shit lifers spout about happiness and success? I don't want any of those things and yet it seems like the typical life script you must follow if you want to be 'successful'. Plus I will be 40 years old in less than 15 years which isn't enough time to find a pointless passion which I'll hate regardless most likely.' And of course the typical replies were basically 'Go out and just do it' as if it's that easy, or 'that suicide only ends the possibility of ever getting better' ugh for one I don't want to get better I want this life to end. It's that's simple. It's that fucking simple.
I could have wrote this myself! I completely agree and can relate to how u feel!
Just naive people that haven't experienced any true suffering in their own lives.
They don't have a legitimate solution they think you're cured if you find a friend or a hobby to keep you busy while completely ignoring everything. Throwing somebody into an office won't cure anything and calling Suicide selfish doesn't help either.
Completely agree it's such a burden trying to find something to do other than suicide but I keep feeling that
it's the only real choice I get to have. I feel like I'm just making excuses at this point and my mind is going haywire with self destruction. Everything else are just mere distractions to block the existential thoughts and chronic pain. Or at least that's how I see it. Suicide to me is about the control I never get to express in this life as most facets of life are literally out of our control.
Justanotherconsumer
Paragon
- Jul 9, 2018
- 974
Mostly i believe its to save the family the grief of your demise. They dont know you or your situation and wouldent help even if they could. They may have religious programming, or they dont want somebody taking the easy way out. Also people secretly love seeing the less fortunate living in crappy conditions, it makes them feel good about themselves, and serves as a govt/social programming to always obey,get a good job so you dont end up like "them".
NOISYMIND
Everyday I wake up I wanna die again.
- Sep 11, 2018
- 164
Exactly. Distraction doesn't cure anything.
