What are your top 3 reasons?

[sukiduki]

depression/anxiety
i dont want to live
i can't find anything worth living for

 

[BlazingBob]

easy, all mental health issues

1) depression and subsequent insomnia (both of them totally resistant)
2) pssd that never fully heals
3) benzo withdrawal that never ends

I also struggle with insomnia. I have Parkinson's and severe RLS. I can only sleep for an hour at a time if I'm lucky. Every morning I feel like complete shit. Sleep actually makes me more tired. I dread facing another day because I can't function because of debilitating exhaustion.

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

1) Difficulty to hold down a job due to autistic burn out. This creates financial stress.

2) Health and energy issues. I have to carefully plan everything and pace so I won't end up completely exhausted. If I overexert myself it sends me to a flare up. I get full on body aches similar to a bad flu.

3) Depression, failed relationships and lack of positivity overall.
No help from the system.

 

[SoulCage]

1) Easily overwhelmed, making life in society very difficult.
This is causing most of my personal problems: being able to pursue passions, jobs, living comfortably (especially when growing older and more health issues arise), independence, self-worth, making connections with other people, fear of making mistakes that cause more problems.

2) Too emotional, especially when it comes to anger.
I just hate it so much how humans exploit each other and other living beings, but then act all innocent. That we are forced to live a certain way, influenced by media, cooperations and politicians to fear each other and to destroy our ecosystems for short term gains. I wish I could just not care and accept that everyone has to suffer, including myself, to fulfill everyone's desires. That I am not jealous at the 1% of people who have less hardhsips, because they have become wealthy from other people's suffering. I hate that I have to participate in this and that I can't ignore it. I know what suffering feels like and I can't stand the fact that everyone has to go through that.

3) Body and pain.
I don't want to suffer anymore from pain, I don't want to feel tired or uncomfortable. Some things I could improve if I weren't too overwhelmed by the work that is needed. But some pain just can't be avoided. I hate that I have to endure it and only have to because my body is programmed to survive. It's really stupid to be conscious, to know that I have to suffer and that at some point I just die anyway.

 

[BlazingBob]

1) Easily overwhelmed, making life in society very difficult.
This is causing most of my personal problems: being able to pursue passions, jobs, living comfortably (especially when growing older and more health issues arise), independence, self-worth, making connections with other people, fear of making mistakes that cause more problems.

2) Too emotional, especially when it comes to anger.
I just hate it so much how humans exploit each other and other living beings, but then act all innocent. That we are forced to live a certain way, influenced by media, cooperations and politicians to fear each other and to destroy our ecosystems for short term gains. I wish I could just not care and accept that everyone has to suffer, including myself, to fulfill everyone's desires. That I am not jealous at the 1% of people who have less hardhsips, because they have become wealthy from other people's suffering. I hate that I have to participate in this and that I can't ignore it. I know what suffering feels like and I can't stand the fact that everyone has to go through that.

3) Body and pain.
I don't want to suffer anymore from pain, I don't want to feel tired or uncomfortable. Some things I could improve if I weren't too overwhelmed by the work that is needed. But some pain just can't be avoided. I hate that I have to endure it and only have to because my body is programmed to survive. It's really stupid to be conscious, to know that I have to suffer and that at some point I just die anyway.

I can definitely relate to all of this. I can't stand the way things are and am not capable of looking the other way. I've tried and just can't and don't even want to participate. I'm also dealing with a problematic body. I just want to not exist.

1) Difficulty to hold down a job due to autistic burn out. This creates financial stress.

2) Health and energy issues. I have to carefully plan everything and pace so I won't end up completely exhausted. If I overexert myself it sends me to a flare up. I get full on body aches similar to a bad flu.

3) Depression, failed relationships and lack of positivity overall.
No help from the system.

I can definitely relate to number 2 and having to pace. If I do something like take a shower and go to a Drs appointment it feels like every cell in my body is on fire. I just don't have the stamina to function and be independent, and I'm about to be homeless because of it. That's if I don't ctb, which I'm going to. I've seen how the homeless are treated. Fuck that.

 

[Yuina]

1) Chronic depression that will never be cured, meaning I will have to take tons of medication for the rest of my (hopefully short) life.
2) Society, I feel unlovable and isolated due to not fitting in anywhere, ever in my life.
3) Dysfunctional and dependent, likely will never be able to hold on my own due to my autism.

 

[Lost_the_will2_live]

1 - My clinical depression and anxiety which never gets any better no matter what I do

2 - My mum passing away, don't want to live on this earth myself when she is no longer here

3 - The world being so messed up, humans are ruining it

 

[Ironborn]

Depression
Anhedonia
Lack of purpose

 

[Tommen Baratheon]

For me it's

1. Physical health/disability
2. Homelessness
3. Treatment resistant mental health issues

1. I see no point in living.

 

[frog_prince]

1. stutter
2. burden for other people
3. my life life is just too much pain with so little joy/happiness

 

[mtoro998]

1. Lost my wife
2. Lost my business and money
3. Fear of being homeless

 

[BlockHammer]

1. Financially still dependent on parents
2. Unable to find a proper job due to the tight competition
3.seeing my friend already heve a job., makes me feel more useless

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

1. I want to kill myself Because I want to do one rational act in my life
2. because I choose to escape the prison
3. to give evil life and this evil world , their false cultural ideologies the middle finger

4.because i choose to and feel like it and no one can tell me what to do or not do or what to think . because i feel like it

 

[Dusk till dawn]

1) I'm a burden to my family and society, i don't contribute in any useful way, i just consume
2) I was rotting from boredom for the last few years, i'm just delaying the inevitable through distractions such as films and etc
3) I lost contact with my childhood friends, i'm a very introvert person and during my whole life i only opened up to some of my childhood friends and those people were the best thing to ever happen in my life, i lost contact with them after my parents moved on to a new home

 

[Archness]

1. No clear way forward, no hope.
2. Autism.
3. World's gonna go to hell anyways.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

1. extreme self-hatred to the point it's agonising just breathing the same air as a person that deserves to be here
2. loneliness through my own uselessness
3. life is painful, miserable, the small things i enjoy aren't worth the agonising misery of existing

 

[SilverFog]

1. Body/appearance
2. My BPD (drives people away from me and I can't really control it)
3. Loneliness/being betrayed by those who say they care about me

 

[QueerMelancholy]

1. Chronic Disease x3

All my reasons are due to chronic diseases that I have had to and will continue to have to pay for to treat the symptoms for the rest of my life.

A while ago I went off all the medications and everything. If my body can't handle the world without them. If my body can't handle living without them. Then what's the point? Paying people for the rest of my life for medication and therapy to treat my disease and then paying more people more money to treat the side effects of those medications?

It's all a shitty merry-go-round. I've been riding it for decades.

 

[assisted]

1. Autism/mental health
2. Psychical health
3. Having no family/friends/support system

did you mean physical health or psychical health

 

[greebo6]

Being ugly
Being unemployable,
And tied in third place....Being lonely / poor

 

[AmericanMary]

1- mental health (ocd & bpd)
2- trauma (men)
3- American society.

 

[fleetingnight]

Physical health, trauma, humanity

 

[LaVieEnRose]

1) having autism
2) being autistic
3) living autistically

 

[burglarlydante]

- trauma/personal bad life experiences
- college and the people in there
- myself

 

[untothedepths]

1. I feel incompatible with most people socially and I have awful luck. The concept of luck doesn't seem feasible logically but I seem to attract a lot of bad things around me. Unprovoked.

2. Chronic physical and emotional pain.

3. The world is getting worse. I don't want to be here.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

1. Family & past abuse in general, humanity wrt my life
2. Forced illness & damage, related to 1.
3. Loneliness ~ the only thing I ever wanted for myself was at least not to be alone on top of everything else

 

[sorrowful]

1. Long term mental health problems
2. Traumatic incidents
3. Lack of motivation, inability to work or properly care for myself

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

1. Society has gone to shit
2. Society has gone to shit

....and, of course
3. Society has gone to shit

 

[blackexile]

For me it's

1. Physical health/disability
2. Homelessness
3. Treatment resistant mental health issues

1. Autism makes it hard for me to accept change and it feels like everyday something worse happens

2. Being transgender (MTF) doesn't help when people would rather you dead then be happy

3. Nihilism

Honorary mention, Trauma

 

[steppingoff]

Peobably self hate
Thinking life is worthless
I'd enjoy the opportunity to end it all