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Forgetting5

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May 3, 2021
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Despite feeling mostly depressed I find happiness in small things, music being one. What is something that keeps you from giving up completely?
 
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kingkong57

kingkong57

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May 24, 2021
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The office. (US version)
 
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apathetic.

Shy
Aug 22, 2021
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Spending time with my sister
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
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♤ music, definitely affects my mood, my attitude, my survival
⊙ the love of my animals :: wild & domestic :: breaks my heart sometimes but builds mostly
♡ hard work :: like today I was in my skivvies shoulder deep in an animal shite septic tank fixing a filter - you just gotta do it (and pray the staff don't put the pics on social media!)
♧ i know I should say recovery, but often its using
☆ ss communication (haters gonna hate, but hey we all deserve to be here....)
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I never feel happy exactly, but small things make me feel a bit better, such as being out in nature (particularly quiet forests) and I have my pet cat.
 
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Alwaysbadtime

Alwaysbadtime

Enlightened
Jun 28, 2021
1,158
Nothing except seeing the old dog I live with play and run around. Giving him treats. That's it.
 
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WaterHemlock

WaterHemlock

Student
Dec 18, 2019
112
I love bees and other pollinators in my flowers and it soothes me to watch them.
I love planting new things and watching them grow.
Baking and cooking make me happy, if I have someone to share it with.
I have a few friends that I don't want to imagine hurting, and sometimes they're the only reason I make it to the next morning.
Sex, when it happens. I'd give up all interest in suicide for regularly scheduled sex with a loving partner.
 
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brainpain2

brainpain2

Student
Sep 16, 2019
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Animals, especially cats. Music especially classical.
I love bees and other pollinators in my flowers and it soothes me to watch them.
I love planting new things and watching them grow.
Baking and cooking make me happy, if I have someone to share it with.
I have a few friends that I don't want to imagine hurting, and sometimes they're the only reason I make it to the next morning.
Sex, when it happens. I'd give up all interest in suicide for regularly scheduled sex with a loving partner.
Oooh flowers and cooking are nice too
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
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Music is a big one for me too. There are songs and recordings that have given me hope in my darkest moments and will always have a special place in my heart. I remember one time when I had been severely anhedonic for months, almost a year, with small moments of muted pleasure over a scattered smattering of days. I hadn't cried in weeks. There was just that persistent emptiness many are familiar with here. You don't even feel the physical precursor of tears again like that chocked up feeling in the back of your throat, that tightness in your chest, or (more rarely) pulsing in your wrists; just a an echo in your thoughts saying that you should be sad but you're not.

I listened to a relatively obscure composition by Aaron Copland while taking a shower. The speaker was on full blast, but I could barely hear it over the rush of water. It still made me cry. It was so beautiful, and my life had had no beauty in it that I could remember in recent memory.
 
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MiseryWithoutCompany

MiseryWithoutCompany

Doggo Good, Doggo Great
Oct 1, 2020
62
Dogs. 100%.
Puppies, old ones, all of them. Considering getting back into fostering because that gave me a huge melatonin or endorphine rush just looking at a dog sleep or wag their tail.
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
Only food and sleep atm
 
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mentalhealthfighter

mentalhealthfighter

Lets win together
Jun 15, 2021
362
Food, sleep, porn and especially books. I read from early morning to late night. I'm trying to push my intellectual capabilities to the max and its really fun. I want to see who I'm able to become.
 
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gayscal3xo

gayscal3xo

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Sep 25, 2020
25
It's not very specific but music, the sound of rain hitting metal roofs and seeing my friends
 
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MiseryWithoutCompany

MiseryWithoutCompany

Doggo Good, Doggo Great
Oct 1, 2020
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Mulder-x

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Jul 23, 2021
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Pizza
 
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OrcWitch

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Sep 3, 2021
703
I like rainy days/nights with the window open, my cat, good food, sleep, having a few close friendships, good media.
 
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everydayiloveyou

Arcanist
Jul 5, 2020
490
My family and my favorite characters

Everything else is nice but I could give them up if I had to
 
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Panna

Panna

Enlightened
Aug 31, 2020
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1 My dog, waking up and seeing him on the bed makes me feel really happy,
2 being outside at work as the sun sets, the street lamps come on, and feeling satisfied at another day done,
3 being in a spot where it's extremely windy, but not cold enough to bypass what I'm using to "hide" out in it
4 reminiscing on old memories of friends and experiences. It helps and hurts when looking at new things never being the same.
 
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ven

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Aug 11, 2021
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My emotional range has narrowed considerably in recent years, I don't know if I feel happy anymore. General day-to-day living is in like a constant state of between apathy and dread. During meditation sessions, I think I've felt contentment and it fades after the session ends, returning to my normal emotional state.
 
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mold

mold

local fungi
Jun 25, 2019
72
my cats, my friends, my family, my partner, and really nice stories and art :)
 
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8evergo

8evergo

Mage
Oct 20, 2021
550
a beautiful suicide together with a picture pretty woman holding hands leaving the world my dream the happys end
 
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PartlyHuman

Sorry for my English
Jan 10, 2021
65
Feeling warm under a soft blanket while it's cold around. Hugs and other physical signs of affection. Blizzards, when I'm inside lol. Light first snow when it's not snowy around, looks so pretty. Autumn leaves sound and earthy smell.
Also eating dried clay lol, I mean, just try it. It's like chalk but better
 
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Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
To know that I can quit this life if I want
 
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Scribble Fan

Scribble Fan

I'm out!
May 30, 2019
815
Listening to music
Playing the piano
Reading Sarah's Scribbles
 
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Idontrecognizemyself

Idontrecognizemyself

Thank you for listening
Oct 26, 2021
79
Despite feeling mostly depressed I find happiness in small things, music being one. What is something that keeps you from giving up completely?
I like making things, I'm not terribly picky about what. Right now I am enjoying cutting up clothes and sewing new "franken-clothes", haha. I'm very bad at it but when I accidentally poke myself with my needle, I remember I am alive and have a body...
I also like learning new things, which is silly considering how much grief school causes me. I want to die, but I can't imagine dying when I only know *this* much.
 
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motyxia

motyxia

less than him
Oct 14, 2021
166
Nothing makes me happy as much as music does

Some other things are
My bunny daughter. Other animals. Activism (it also makes me sad, angry, scared, but it also makes me happy, feel less alone, that I can do something, that I'm helping others, inspired & less powerless). Autumn. Fog. Early mornings, 5-9 a.m. Exploring abandoned buildings. Learning more about my interests. Warm blankets & clothes just out of the dryer. Warm oatmilk. Tea. Foraging. When someone's interested in what I'm gushing about & asks questions to learn more. When men cry & talk about their emotions instead of feeling pressured to bottle it up. When men smile. When men support each other. Men.
 
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TriggerHappy

TriggerHappy

In the kingdom of th blind; the one-eyed are kings
Jan 24, 2021
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Idontrecognizemyself

Idontrecognizemyself

Thank you for listening
Oct 26, 2021
79
Nothing makes me happy as much as music does

Some other things are
My bunny daughter. Other animals. Activism (it also makes me sad, angry, scared, but it also makes me happy, feel less alone, that I can do something, that I'm helping others, inspired & less powerless). Autumn. Fog. Early mornings, 5-9 a.m. Exploring abandoned buildings. Learning more about my interests. Warm blankets & clothes just out of the dryer. Warm oatmilk. Tea. Foraging. When someone's interested in what I'm gushing about & asks questions to learn more. When men cry & talk about their emotions instead of feeling pressured to bottle it up. When men smile. When men support each other. Men.
Activism (and your elaboration of it- very well put!) is so insightful. I'm so glad music can be that for you, I've enjoyed reading some of your other posts about music as well : )
 
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Ren Elsie Jewelria

Ren Elsie Jewelria

I sneezed!
Aug 30, 2020
373
Reading books, comic books, drawing, watching anime and cartoons.
 
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