What are the top 3 shittiest things you ever did in your life

[Nights]

1. I peed on a women at some festive and she didn't notice, i was young and idiotic, she later figured out it was me by asking but i didn't care
2. I asked my grandmother to show nudes as a troll when i was like 7 year old
3. I was a pro-lifer at some point in my life and i did the forced my girlfriend (no we're not dating or having sex but she's a girl and she's my friend so i don't know how else to say it) and i told my girlfriend if she tries to ctb i'll cut my arm and i was serious at this threat, i regret this shit, i was 14 year old at that time, later she thanked me for saving her life but i still feel shitty for forcing her to live against her will, she was 13 year old at that time

 

[counting-out-time]

1. being born
2. living
3 that fact that i'm not dead yet

 

[Nights]

1. being born
2. living
3 that fact that i'm not dead yet

But nobody can stop himself from being born so i see no way how that's even a decision or something someone can regret for, and i also see no way how living or not being dead could be the shittiest thing for someone, i understand suffering and i'm definitely not a pro-lifer, but living isn't something that can be considered as a shitty thing to do, especially with your survival instincts, humans are designed to live, and going against your survival instincts and your emotions and what you're programmed to do isn't an easy thing to do so there's no reason to go harsh on yourself for that (not meaning to spread any toxic positivity tho)

 

[The anhedonic one]

1, My stepfather was a paedophile.
When I was young and having to live at home with him, I would gather dogshit from nextdoors garden and put it into his spaghetti Bolognese.
He lived off spaghetti Bolognese, and never complained of it tasting weird. Oh what fun I had watching him eat that shit.
2, One of my neighbours was a real asshole, a real nasty peice of work who used to beat his dog. I hated him. One day I caught a glimpse of him through his living room window as I retrieved a ball from his backyard.
He was wearing stockings and suspenders and high heels. He looked really out of it, on drugs or alcohol. It was summer and his backdoor was open.
I sneaked in and took a photo of him all dressed up like a woman.
He had a big beard so looked even funnier in stockings and heels.
I made copies of the photo and posted copies to the neighbours, who were all part of his church group.
He moved away a few weeks later.
3 I took a huge diarrhoea shit on my bosses brand new white BMW.
He wasn't a happy bunny to say the least.

 

[StaticCryBabye]

1. I wasted an opportunity to live in a completely new, affluent and loving family.

2. Tried serious ctbing five times, but somehow ended up botching every single one of them.

3. Still sticking around solely to witness the future advancements in technology that I could have access too even if it means rotting away like a complete moron.

 

[Azno]

1. Being an absolutely horrible older brother.

2. Used to do the deed to some horrible stuff.

3. Me being an overall bad person with bad opinions.

Guilt isn't the main reason, but it's one of biggest reasons I want to die.

 

[Valky]

1, My stepfather was a paedophile.
When I was young and having to live at home with him, I would gather dogshit from nextdoors garden and put it into his spaghetti Bolognese.
He lived off spaghetti Bolognese, and never complained of it tasting weird. Oh what fun I had watching him eat that shit.
2, One of my neighbours was a real asshole, a real nasty peice of work who used to beat his dog. I hated him. One day I caught a glimpse of him through his living room window as I retrieved a ball from his backyard.
He was wearing stockings and suspenders and high heels. He looked really out of it, on drugs or alcohol. It was summer and his backdoor was open.
I sneaked in and took a photo of him all dressed up like a woman.
He had a big beard so looked even funnier in stockings and heels.
I made copies of the photo and posted copies to the neighbours, who were all part of his church group.
He moved away a few weeks later.
3 I took a huge diarrhoea shit on my bosses brand new white BMW.
He wasn't a happy bunny to say the least.

Oh myyy, you are an absolute badass!!

 

[Black Sheep One]

1. Being born.
2. Getting Married
3. Having Children

 

[Aisley]

1. Have never said aloud, and won't write it out. But it's shitty.
2. Caused a woman to be infected with hep C. I knew it would happen, and she didn't.
3. Had an abortion. Subjective, I know. I considered it a human life, I considered it murder, but a murder within my rights to have done. And I still do.

 

[catastrophix]

1.) Was too emotionally dependent on friends/partners and just a generally negative person up until a year ago or so

2.) One of the times I went to the psych ward, I was 14 and forced to go by ambulance cause my ex gf called the police on me. So making everyone worry about me was really guilt inducing

3.) Used to get into extremely explosive arguments with my mom when I was 14-16 years old

 

[blacktulip44]

1. not being good enough for my partner. he does everything for me, he'd move the moon and stars if i asked, but i have certain trauma responses that paralyse me mentally and i cant do shit. it makes me feel useless, and like i dont do the bare minimum, let alone enough for him.
2. telling my family about my rape. it served no purpose, it only hurt them and me more.
3. not reporting said rape. i could have, and i tried to, but the process of being interrogated like a criminal made me scared and uncomfortable. i ended up lying and saying i took drugs by my own volition and had sex without a condom, because i couldnt bear to do the 72h mandatory suicide watch the hospital had.

tldr: im a shit person

 

[gardenofaphrodite]

1. Holding onto massive information about my mother's past, which effected my life completely, & is the reason I hate her. Morally, I should tell my step-dad. However, financially speaking, neither of them may be able to survive the consequences (divorce, debt, etc). & I'm unsure what will happen with the family dynamic of all my siblings (half & step, but raised together for well over 10yrs). I will tell them at some point, but I do factor in that I have been holding onto this information since a week or two after my first CTB attempt (Feb. 2022). Unsure whether I will release the information while I'm living, or wait until I'm dead & leave a lengthy note with phone numbers to contact the sources/people effected. Truly, I don't know what to do, & it's one of the worst decisions I am still trying to make, & because I'm waiting, the shittiest thing I have ever done.

2. Treating my siblings bad/yelling at them when I was 10-14. I apologized for it to each of them, but it always eats at me when I think about it. I know why I did it, but it doesn't excuse it (poor parenting, copying my mother's behavior).

3. Not developing a good relationship with my siblings early-on. I feel disconnected from all them, while they're all very close with each other. I feel left out, & it's my fault.

 

[Ashu]

Well... if this is the worst you kids've got on your conscience... go a bit easy on yerself.

 

[90starve]

1 - i posted a video of my ex boyfriend having a mental breakdown for his friends to see. i don't like to admit that i did this, but i feel it was justified. he had been abusing me for 2 years - nobody would believe me that he was as crazy as he was, so i thought i had to show them for anybody to want to help me get out.

2 - i was horrible to my auntie 5 years ago - she was enduring chemotherapy at the time, to make matters worse. i never apologised for, or acknowledged the things i said to her. in march this year she passed away - i forfeited my chance to say that i'm sorry, and i don't think i can ever forgive myself for it.

3 - the way i've treated my boyfriend is my biggest regret. i've just been so disrespectful and nasty. he's been watching while my mental well-being declines - he's still here, even after witnessing the most horrible sides of me - but sometimes i lose myself, and have outbursts where i say and do the cruelest things.

 

[captive]

1. Have never said aloud, and won't write it out. But it's shitty.
2. Caused a woman to be infected with hep C. I knew it would happen, and she didn't.
3. Had an abortion. Subjective, I know. I considered it a human life, I considered it murder, but a murder within my rights to have done. And I still do.

as for me abortion should never be considered a crime, but releasing an unwanted child to this world is. why the heck people get so mad at abortions i seriously don't get it, it's basically just a set of cells which is not even conscious and sentient to realize it is about to be killed. if you want an abortion and you completed it - you did absolutely nothing wrong, in fact it's better for both of you. it is euthanasia for unborn to be clear. i hope you can get along with that decision you have made, peace to you

 

[Aisley]

Than

as for me abortion should never be considered a crime, but releasing an unwanted child to this world is. why the heck people get so mad at abortions i seriously don't get it, it's basically just a set of cells which is not even conscious and sentient to realize it is about to be killed. if you want an abortion and you completed it - you did absolutely nothing wrong, in fact it's better for both of you. it is euthanasia for unborn to be clear. i hope you can get along with that decision you have made, peace to you

Thank you. It's not something I lose sleep over, and I don't judge others for it; I'd fight to the death for these rights of ours. And I'm not trying to upset you, but it's not a clump of cells, it's a human life. And this one was about six months in. One of those two-day procedures, you know? It was just about the dumbest situation I'd ever.put myself in, and I'm not proud of it.