Discussion What are the thoughts that go through one's head before completely losing consciousness while hanging?

[Rabitfever]

I am considering full suspension as my final choice and was wondering what thoughts one would have leading up to the loss of consciousness in this method. To those of you who have tried partial/full suspension and survived, what did it feel like? What were the thoughts running through your head? What was the last thing you remember? Was there discomfort? Was there regret?

 

[CommitSudoku]

Panic and anxiety, then frustration after my noose broke and other times I pulled out too soon. I haven't lost consciousness so I don't have experience to say completely. It was painful for me though and it's hard to work up the courage to let yourself go completely in full suspension. My last attempt (last week I think it was) I was on my second try and I guess my noose was too tight before I stepped off because I started choking and coughing violently and it felt like I was trying to cough up my lungs, I had pain in my left side, I'm not sure what that was from, and ended up thrashing a bit in panic and hurt my arm. The time when my noose broke it was so tight around my neck it was hard to get off and my throat was really sore and my neck hurt.

Again I haven't gone unconscious though in my attempts and I'm sure that would have helped, but mentally and physically it wasn't a good experience, SI hits hard. Or at least for me. I was just done with everything before I attempted, I had time alone and I couldn't stand the thought of living another day, and my anxiety was unbearable. Immediately my only regret was breaking a nice noose and pulling out early - so basically not succeeding. Having lived I know I'd have other regrets - namely I hadn't actually named a beneficiary on one of my bank accounts (whoops).

To me it's a painful method. Perhaps I didn't do things right, and unfortunately I wasn't lucky enough to go unconscious (or die) from hanging. Also depending on your setup it can be easy to back out of. That's just my experience. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

 

[wearingmyheart]

Panic and anxiety, then frustration after my noose broke and other times I pulled out too soon. I haven't lost consciousness so I don't have experience to say completely. It was painful for me though and it's hard to work up the courage to let yourself go completely in full suspension. My last attempt (last week I think it was) I was on my second try and I guess my noose was too tight before I stepped off because I started choking and coughing violently and it felt like I was trying to cough up my lungs, I had pain in my left side, I'm not sure what that was from, and ended up thrashing a bit in panic and hurt my arm. The time when my noose broke it was so tight around my neck it was hard to get off and my throat was really sore and my neck hurt.

Again I haven't gone unconscious though in my attempts and I'm sure that would have helped, but mentally and physically it wasn't a good experience, SI hits hard. Or at least for me. I was just done with everything before I attempted, I had time alone and I couldn't stand the thought of living another day, and my anxiety was unbearable. Immediately my only regret was breaking a nice noose and pulling out early - so basically not succeeding. Having lived I know I'd have other regrets - namely I hadn't actually named a beneficiary on one of my bank accounts (whoops).

To me it's a painful method. Perhaps I didn't do things right, and unfortunately I wasn't lucky enough to go unconscious (or die) from hanging. Also depending on your setup it can be easy to back out of. That's just my experience. Best wishes whatever you decide to do.

How did the noose break?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Some people "might" regret it, but it depends on the person.

 

[<D>]

i had one when i tried and lost consciousness for a little bit of time, i tried not think at all before doing it, there was nothing good gonna come of it

 

[CommitSudoku]

How did the noose break?

My weight was too much. I had used this noose for something close to partial before but never tested with full. I'm a DIY type of person so probably what I used for the noose was too weak. Until recently I didn't have the freedom to buy many supplies, so belts and ties have been my go to.

 

[Shu]

I felt euphoria then heavy and tingly then everything started going black

 

[Al Cappella]

I'd imagine "oh shit!" might be one of them…But really, I think pretty early on your brain goes super nova as panic and loss of air set in…

 

[Rabitfever]

I'd imagine "oh shit!" might be one of them…But really, I think pretty early on your brain goes super nova as panic and loss of air set in…

Most of the videos I've seen suggest it's more of less peaceful from an outsiders perspective. Until the thrashing starts, but I imagine consciousness is lost by then. But I wonder what goes on inside the mind

 

[Al Cappella]

Most of the videos I've seen suggest it's more of less peaceful from an outsiders perspective. Until the thrashing starts, but I imagine consciousness is lost by then. But I wonder what goes on inside the mind

I can't watch the thrashing—find it creepy. But I don't think you're aware of that bit, that's your body on auto…

 

[Rabitfever]

I can't watch the thrashing—find it creepy. But I don't think you're aware of that bit, that's your body on auto…

True. But I keep telling myself that I've lived with unbearable chronic pain for so long, so how is a few minutes more of pain and discomfort going to matter? I was looking at sophisticated methods when I was doing my research but now I'm convinced that hanging is how I'll be doing it. I just need to find some heavy sedatives to pop before kicking the chair.

 

[Efilismislife]

True. But I keep telling myself that I've lived with unbearable chronic pain for so long, so how is a few minutes more of pain and discomfort going to matter? I was looking at sophisticated methods when I was doing my research but now I'm convinced that hanging is how I'll be doing it. I just need to find some heavy sedatives to pop before kicking the chair.

But once youlose conscious you cant proceeds/do anything? But if you havent completely lose conscious deeply you can still feel sufferings/pain.

this is what confused me

I created a thread before about combining methods.

Rope, torniquet, bag, Benzo, opioid, betablocker but still clueless

thinking of gas also but seem hard

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

If I went out this way my thoughts would be:

"I never thought i'd go out the same way as saddam"

 

[Rabitfever]

But once youlose conscious you cant proceeds/do anything? But if you havent completely lose conscious deeply you can still feel sufferings/pain.

this is what confused me

I created a thread before about combining methods.

Rope, torniquet, bag, Benzo, opioid, betablocker but still clueless

thinking of gas also but seem hard

I was thinking of a setup where I don't have to be conscious to ensure everything works.. there will be some amount of mechanical automation and loads of practice runs. Have a rough idea, but not complete. And as far as the sedatives are concerned, I'm not planning on anything crazy.. Just loads of alcohol and benzos. From research, it seems like they would be the best to turn off SI and maybe even a bit of the pain.