What are signs that you spiraling into a depressive episode?

[sadbunny]

For me it's the collection of cups accumulating in my room.

~bonus question: how do you avoid from falling into it?

 

[WornOutLife]

Cups are accumulating in my room too haha.
Some other signs for me are getting fatter, not wanting to go outside and staying in bed a lot.

Bonus answer: I'm still looking for an answer. People say you just gotta do what you have to do and then everything will be easy but it's not.

 

[sadbunny]

Cups are accumulating in my room too haha.
Some other signs for me are getting fatter, not wanting to go outside and staying in bed a lot.

Bonus answer: I'm still looking for an answer. People say you just gotta do what you have to do and then everything will be easy but it's not.

Yup this is depression

 

[fatiguecentral]

• Isolating myself in my room most days.
• Not enjoying things I used to enjoy.
• Not enjoying anything.
• Sleeping too much/too little.
• No motivation to do anything.
• Really want to die.

 

[Rustysoupcan]

For me it's not listening to music or podcasts anymore. I also get like a physical urge to like "rip my head off". I cant describe it other than its similar to how I get an urge to SH in a specific spot, except it's my head/neck and I just want to blow/rip my head off or choke myself

 

[Callie Arcale]

- Thinking a lot about suicide
- Intense pain in my stomach
- Crying a lot
- Struggling to get through the day at work
- Isolating myself from friends and family
- Not doing anything apart from work

(Oh wait... I just described every day of my life for the past years.)

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

For me it's when I start getting this sinking feeling in my chest/gut area, it feels like life is physically draining away from me which this reduces my urge to do anything lively.....

 

[signifying nothing]

Not being able to get out of bed, then not being bothered by not being able to get out of bed are the key ones for me. Then also self deprecating thoughts, self harm increasing, wanting to be away from other people more than usual, shitty mood, etc. I don't try to avoid it, just go with it these days - quicker I get in it, quicker I get through it and out the other side.

 

[Trans Magus]

I haven't been doing much other than laying in bed and crying lately. That's probably one of them.

 

[LeGuitarist]

The fact that I spend 99.999% of my day in bed

Bonus answer: Force yourself out of bed, take a walk, coping skills, visit a doctor or therapist, talk to loved ones or friends, call suicide hotline/talk to someone about how you're feeling, etc. Feel free to ask for more

 

[Tkmiz_Tsukumizu]

Drinking compulsively or wanting to feel miserable or not enjoying anything feeling guilty for having friends

 

[restforeternity]

*Relying too much on weed
*Forgetting to eat
*Disconnecting from loved ones
*Possibly going through psychosis (paranoia, trust issues)
*Daydreaming
*Sleeping too late
*Waking up before the alarm and unable to go back to sleep
*Not much of an appetite lately
*Avoiding any social interaction as much as possible
*Chain smoking
*Looking at high places again
*Laundry on wrinkle cycle for the past 2 weeks

 

[Sensei]

It can be difficult for me to distinguish between depression due to "normal" instability and the beginning of an elaborate bipolar episode. However, generally speaking I focus entirely on my problems, think constantly about death, and get suicidal impulses.

 

[Hirokami]

Frequent suicidal thoughts, thoughts and tendencies of harming myself, not eating, not bathing, only leaving the bed to either use the bathroom or do the bare minimum on my assignments, not cleaning the house, not gaming at all, crying spells, shutting myself off, and/or taking sleeping medicine during the day are all signs of my depression spiraling out of control.

 

[Celerity]

1. My sex drive flattens.
2. You don't.

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

I get less sleep, my room turns into squalor, my hygiene gets really bad. Those were the usual signs that my episodes of double depression were starting. Then I also want to cut myself so, so very often. Can't do any hobbies.

This current episode has been incredibly bad. Some symptoms I've never had before.

 

[Charmolypi]

• Longer and longer periods of time spent in bed, as many of you have already mentioned. I may wake up at 8 a.m. but it's 12 by the time I manage to actually get up. It works right now as I'm not working.
• Slowly drifting away from whatever temporary friends or acquaintances I made during my "good" period. One of the reasons why I just can't hold down a friendship and I'm alone.
• I halt or completely abandon projects I had started earlier. I just don't see the point and any enjoyment I could have gotten from them is just a vague memory at that point.
• More irritable and very sensitive to noise, bright lights, even people speaking at a normal tone or slightly louder. This tends to disappear when the real apathy and indifference set in.
• My self-image gets worse. I don't want to look in the mirror, I avoid it and I start to care less. I don't obsess over it, I know I don't like my face and that's the end of it.
• I think about suicide more consistently, of course. I tell myself that renouncing to all of this mess would just be easier.

 

[GenesAndEnvironment]

Can't have episodes if you're constantly "functionally" depressed due to a lack of affection.

 

[TessB]

I always go up before I go down into total depression. I have this total high period thinking life is a brilliant adventure, I'm invincible, amazing, attractive, and I'm taking stupid risks and doing embarrassing stuff I'd never normally do..and taking risks with my emotions and my relationship, and when I feel like that I know it's inevitable the crash will come, everything comes falling down around me and I'm completely suicidal full of self loathing.
They think I could have bipolar as well as bpd and prescribed me lamotrigine but I was meant to have a liver function test before taking it which I'm scared of having because I drink so much.

 

[luten]

not going out my apartment
not going on shopping sprees
not eating healthy
not lifting
not wanting to take phone calls

my depression is easy to fix with wellbutrin, it works right away.

 

[Lost Magic]

A lot of crying and internal self loathing. I wish I could sleep forever and perhaps soon enough... I will.

 

[my heart hurts]

Not joking, when I log on to this site. That's usually around the time I give up for a little while at least. Besides the more obvious things like not talking or moving really. When it gets really bad sometimes I sorta lose the ability to walk? My body feels to heavy. Then the heart pains come.

 

[MindFrog]

Your body feels "heavy". Every task feels like a struggle from doing work to brush your teeth. Social interaction feels like a nightmare.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

When I cant motivate myself to even watch a movie I just sit… I lose my appetite completely and it takes me a long time to get the motivation to get up and take a shower when I normally do it immediately when my phone reminder pops up. Also temper goes from 5% of a normal person to 1%.

 

[Sensei]

I'm bipolar so it kicks in quickly for me. I get very sensitive to triggers and have depressive thoughts which quickly escalate into suicidal thoughts.

 

[DeadButDreaming]

I'm bipolar so it kicks in quickly for me. I get very sensitive to triggers and have depressive thoughts which quickly escalate into suicidal thoughts.

I don't mean to be nosey, but what is a "manic" episode like? Are you happy during it? I've always wondered.

 

[restforeternity]

I'm a little too easily triggered especially as of today. It's only the morning and I'm already in tears for reasons that I cannot explain. Crying out to God that he would just take my life.

 

[Sensei]

I don't mean to be nosey, but what is a "manic" episode like? Are you happy during it? I've always wondered.

That's not nosey at all, but I can't give you a good answer. I suffer from bipolar disorder type II so I only get hypomanic episodes, not manic ones. Hypomanic episodes are through and through pleasant for me. I only sleep three hours a night and become very happy, positive, optimistic, productive, goal-oriented, and creative, and I wouldn't mind being hypomanic the rest of my life, even if it would mean shortening it dramatically.

 

[UseItOrLoseIt]

Eventually, you reach the center of the spiral and start to look at the cups as your only company.

 

[FuneralCry]

You struggle to get out of bed, you space out, you spend time staring at the walls, you lack energy for anything, doing any simple task is exhausting and takes a long time, experience a lack of emotions, have a hollow feeling, nothing interests you. You are constantly irritated by everything, in particular other people.
I think I pretty much have anhedonia all the time but this is what it was like at its worse for me.