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Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
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I just keep thinking about the time I drank 2 spoonfuls of salt in water and started vomiting and it hurt so good.

I liked how after I drank the salt, the pain that was to come was out of my control and I'd have to endure it.

I really want to do it again but my parents would probably take me to the doctor for throwing up too much. It also messed up my body for a couple of days.

I bought 1 liter of coconut water tho, for me to drink if I ever do it again. Which I probably will.

I also like the attention I get tho… like seeing my family actually care about me.

I never talk about how I feel on the inside. I just can't. I'm also starving myself too. So soon they would notice that.

I also like the pain starving gives me but after 48 hours of not eating, I give in and eat.

So actually this is my 8th 48 hour fast in a row, I just have one big meal at the end of 48 hours and then I jump right back in.

I ate tonight and I guess not being in starvation mode means I am able to think… and I really just can't deal with thinking.
 
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dumpmeforgood

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Oct 29, 2024
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What I usually do is cutting my thighs slightly with utility knife. I mean like placing the tip on my skin and let the weight does the job.

It hurts mostly a day and stays red for a couple of days before fading like how a graze would.
 
Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
325
What I usually do is cutting my thighs slightly with utility knife. I mean like placing the tip on my skin and let the weight does the job.

It hurts mostly a day and stays red for a couple of days before fading like how a graze would.
I don't know how you can do that… I could never cut myself. I don't like the way it stings.

I like self harm where it's something out of my control happening. Not something I have to actively hurt myself with.

Like drinking salt and starving myself. It's painful things that are happening as a result.
 
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CookedRamen

Don't Look Down
Jun 10, 2024
27
Ways I've SHd include
1. Cutting my arms/thighs/shoulders with a razor blade (the type that comes in packs at walmart). I like this for the blood, not the pain. So I tend to make sure my arms are colder when I do it. If my skin is warm it hurts more when I cut.
2. Hitting myself with fists, usually the front of my legs/above the knees
3. Making myself throw up, usually with fingers is the most effective for me. Just make sure to drink water before you do and brush your teeth afterward.
4. Alcohol (obvious), If you're under 21 in the US this one isn't as easy. But I tend to just do shots of Vodka, although after a couple I'll just start drinking out of the bottle.
5. Weed, depends on where you live. But getting high like 24/7 can be self harm
6. Squeezing my neck to try and make myself pass out. Rarely works but it's fun and it reduces the oxygen going to my brain which makes me feel a little high
7. Not drinking water/any liquids for a long time will lower your electrolytes and make you feel like you're going to pass out.

Methods I haven't tried but know of.
Putting salt on your skin then an ice cube on top of it will burn your skin. Do this somewhere where other people can't see it because it does leave a mark. I actually learned about this last time I was in the Psych ward.

Anyways that's all I've got. Hope these help.

I've seen lots of people on here discouraging self harm, but the fact is that it can be a helpful coping mechanism and we all need stuff to cope with this cruel world.
 
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Apr 4, 2026
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What is your objective with self harm? Everyone has different motivation
 
Tyra

Tyra

Pic is from Shawshank Redemption after he escaped.
Jul 22, 2026
325
What is your objective with self harm? Everyone has different motivation
Sometimes my emotions just feel like too much in my body. Sometimes I just feel completely numb. Sometimes I want to punish myself, and I know that sounds cruel but it gives me a sense of relief.
 
webb&flow

webb&flow

dum spiro spero—take it as it comes
Nov 30, 2024
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here is some info from @h4ppyhypoxia, firsthand information pertaining to self-induced vomiting:
you should worry about a lot of things

electrolyte imbalances which can cause seizures or problems with your heart
gastric acid making your teeth go yellow/black and fall out, or making them incredibly sensitive
sores inside your gums that will be incredibly painful and bleed
acid reflux and heart burn
chronic throat clearing and difficulty swallowing
tearing your esophagus
nose bleeds and red patches in your eyes
russells sign
gastroparesis
swollen salivary glands making the face look puffy
involuntary vomiting

all these risks when digestion starts in the mouth so you cant even rid yourself of all the calories

if you HAVE to purge, exercise purge, it is far safer, harm reduction first, if you have self induced vomiting please drink electrolyte water, i am pro cohice, but as someone with AN-BP, vomit purging is never worth it, its such a bad physical experience as well, you feel your heart rate going crazy, sore throat afterwards, the pressure in your head, its never good, i would strongly encourage you never to start, its addictive too
yes absolutely, anorexia has the highest mortality rate, but purging is THE most harmful eating disorder behaviour to the body, and on this site i get how a "high mortality rate" might get twisted into thinking its a good thing, but its not, it eating disorders kill in a slow and painful way, and you would be surprised at what your body can endure before it gets to that point, early intervention is so important, food should be something to enjoy:heart:

the complications from vomiting can really be painful. i know you want to reduce the amount of pain in your life ♥. i don't want you to develop any painful complications or anything; i want to share this information with you not to scare you or anything like that but because i want you to be well informed about this matter, that is my core intention here ♥.

Sometimes my emotions just feel like too much in my body. Sometimes I just feel completely numb. Sometimes I want to punish myself, and I know that sounds cruel but it gives me a sense of relief.
you can also try drowning out your emotions with videos, music, and other such things; these can help numb the mind too.

using information intake to numb your mind will at least not have physical harmful complications of side effects~

Sometimes my emotions just feel like too much in my body. Sometimes I just feel completely numb. Sometimes I want to punish myself, and I know that sounds cruel but it gives me a sense of relief.
if you might like to try different stress survival tactics, feel free to explore any of these ♥

here are some pain-response ones that could provide a useful supplement for experiencing and relieving pain~

we as humans have crafted techniques to really reduce painful emotions, with the methods of science to create effective ways to relieve pain in unbearable moments, techniques where one does not have to worry about unexpected side effects or anything ♥.

if you would like to take a peek at these, feel free to, anytime ♥.

i'm not saying you "have" to do anything, or that "purging is morally wrong" at all; i'm not saying you "have" to "instantly stop purging", i'm just providing more ways of engaging with pain in case of curiosity ^^

wishing you the best!!! 🫂🫂 you deserve soothing ways to give relief, embrace, and calmness in hard moments, ways that are as easy and soothing and easy on the body as possible 🤗
 
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