Venting What a fucking mess of brain

[Daxter_87]

I don't even have the energy to make this post worth anyone's time. Dreadful, just fucking awful. The feeling of dread is always there, even if it's only in the back of my mind. And people just make you feel that there's something wrong with you, that you need "help". Of course, I don't talk to anyone in real life about any of this, because I'd rather spare myself from hearing the cliché bullshit they usually say.

But the pain doesn't end there. On top of that, my brain has decided to torture me with OCD, which is just the fucking devil. Combine depression and OCD, and you have the recipe for absolute disaster. The fucker will even make me doubt whether I'm really depressed or not, whether I have OCD or not. What's next? It's going to make me doubt whether I have five fucking fingers on my goddamned hands.

Awful fucking brain, awful, awful, awful.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

My brain sucks too, so I get it. And don't you just hate it when your own brain gaslights you? Mine does that to me all the time.

Sometimes if other people try to tell you things to make you doubt yourself, their ideas can get absorbed by our brains sometimes, and then we obsess over it. This can lead to us doubting all kinds of things that we know are true and believing things that aren't. Do you think that could be true for you at all, or is it only your brain making you doubt things?

 

[FuneralCry]

That just sounds so horrible what you are going through, it must be so torturous. It certainly is such a hellish world we exist in where there is all this endless suffering.

 

[Daxter_87]

My brain sucks too, so I get it. And don't you just hate it when your own brain gaslights you? Mine does that to me all the time.

Sometimes if other people try to tell you things to make you doubt yourself, their ideas can get absorbed by our brains sometimes, and then we obsess over it. This can lead to us doubting all kinds of things that we know are true and believing things that aren't. Do you think that could be true for you at all, or is it only your brain making you doubt things?

Exactly this. It happens to me all the time. Even when I was doing ERP therapy, my family made me doubt about the validity of such therapy. They didn't do it on purpose, I'm not blaming them. All it takes for someone to make me doubt is to simply suggest something that is not consistent with my beliefs, and then boom, I'm fucked up.

 

[CTB Dream]

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[Huggs]

I'm sorry. OCD and depression are horrible.
I understand the struggle with the brain. I have conditions as well.