Discussion Were you under the impression that CTB is easy before becoming suicidal? Poll

[HadItAll]

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[milk is sweet]

yes, I thought it was easy, It took a long time for me to finally overcome fear of death

 

[soontobedone]

I never realized how hard it would be to find something that works and isn't extremely painful or messy. I recently was shown some gore videos (definitely not my thing) that made me realize what horrific things the cops etc have to put up with. TV makes everything look quick. Not.

 

[SilentSadness]

Initially I thought I could hang myself in my room, ultimately I couldn't even constrict my breathing. I had no idea about how difficult it really is. Media and news articles make it seem so much easier than it is. I was extremely disappointed when the truth set in.

 

[HadItAll]

Initially I thought I could hang myself in my room, ultimately I couldn't even constrict my breathing. I had no idea about how difficult it really is. Media and news articles make it seem so much easier than it is. I was extremely disappointed when the truth set in.

Movies, media, etc. I always thought, for example "oh, if my life gets fucked up, I'll just crash my car" completely unaware that by doing that I'm more likely to cripple myself in agony than to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

I still wanted to die back then, in fact I've never wished to exist at all but when I was much younger I thought that suicide was much more straightforward, I thought that people could die from taking loads of random pills and I thought that hanging was much easier as I heard of news stories about it. I never attempted anything though, but when I found this website years ago and started doing research into suicide methods I soon learned how difficult suicide sadly is. It's just so unfortunate how it's so difficult to die despite this world being an incredibly hellish place filled with unlimited potential for torture.

 

[Blackroom_57]

I was shocked at how brutal killing yourself actually is when I started really researching methods. I was like holy shit people actually do this. Then I realized just how fucked you have to be in order to actually kill yourself.

 

[outrider567]

No, always knew it was difficult after I read that only 1 in 23 attempts succeeded

 

[parader]

i always thought of it as easy to do but terribly painful, didn't know about SI before i had to deal with it myself
it's so hard

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes- I was completely fooled by the film and television representations of overdosing- accidentally or not and just like that- it's over.

 

[Ginnn]

I used to think that I could kms by putting my head in a fan...

 

[Heavenbound]

Yes, originally I thought it would be easy. I had heard of people drinking bleach and I was going to do that. Further research taught me that it's actually a very bad idea.