One of my attempts was driven by a borderline trigger which lead me to a psychotic episode, but I was in front of my best friend so he watched it all and of course he prevented me since he is 10x stronger than me.
Well, I don't agree in any way trying this in front of any person, but anyone is free to have their choices. Although I know he will carry those images for the rest of his life and I regret it so much to have him go through this.
He didn't need to call an ambulance or anything because he could hold me, he grabbed my meds and put something like 4mg of xanax under my tongue and I eventually calm down feeling so fucking guilty.
Anyway 10 days passed and I was committed to a mental hospital because I was dumb enough to tell my psychiatrist (I was hoping she would actually give me a stronger or different medicine to prevent psychotic episodes). Mental hospital sucks but I've made nice friends lol they all got caught and felt bad as well. One of them was actually angry because they "weren't actually trying, just wanted to sleep a little" but that's how people in mental hospital are