Well, it is time for me to stop hurting.

[Ark]

I have a lot to say but will do my best to condense it.

First, thank you to all who created and keep this forum running. I have created and ran forums in the past and know first hand the challenges involved. And especially in this context I am sure there are many more challenges than normal. Thank you to all of you.

I have gotten to know a lot of people my time here, and many of those people helped me greatly. Some of them are gone now and I miss them. I don't think I can name people as if I miss someone then I would not want that person to think I ignored mentioning them for some reason. But, if I talked to you, I care about you. And I appreciate you all more than I can express. I got to know some better than others of course and you know who you are. Thank you to all of you.

It is just the nature of things that this post will be buried and forgotten in time. But, if anyone reads this please heed my advice. Life itself is amazing and precious. If you are here you are hurting and I am sorry for your pain. But, never act hastily, most times there is a way for your situation to get better. Especially if you are young. You owe it to yourself to consider every single possibility to try to make your situation better and continue to experience the wonders that life has to offer. Also know though that if you do all in your power to try to find any possible way to make your life livable, but find there truly is no way, you would have my support for what it is worth.

I will be CTBing tonight about 1 am EST. My method is N. I will be using a stat dose of Meto one hour before. I have prepared my loved ones as best I can. I put my after life wishes into effect as best I could also.

I am feeling relieved that my pain will finally be ended. So far anyway, I am not afraid. I know in my heart I tried with all I am to find a way to live without pain. My only regret is that someone that meant everything to me always promised to be here holding my hand when I passed. And she won't be.

I will self ban before I take my drink. I will then reset my phone to factory.

Thank you all for everything and I hope my words will help some people in their journeys no matter where it leads them.

I will be around here until I go tonight. But I needed to get this written now.

 

[Jean4]

Ok. Thank you for preparing me for this beforehand. I will say it again. You know I want you to stay, but I won't stop you.

I will be here for you until the end.

Thank you for being you. You are such a special person, and I am so sorry you were dealt this hand in life.

If I could stop you, I would. If not, I know Stan is waiting for you.

Sending you all my love. I am here.

 

[HereToday]

Wishing you a peaceful journey. Hope the destination is better than this place. Sorry to hear the person who promised they'd be with you, won't be. I can relate to that and it sucks. I hope you find comfort in the forum at least. Good luck and safe journey

 

[fightingsioux]

I have a lot to say but will do my best to condense it.

First, thank you to all who created and keep this forum running. I have created and ran forums in the past and know first hand the challenges involved. And especially in this context I am sure there are many more challenges than normal. Thank you to all of you.

I have gotten to know a lot of people my time here, and many of those people helped me greatly. Some of them are gone now and I miss them. I don't think I can name people as if I miss someone then I would not want that person to think I ignored mentioning them for some reason. But, if I talked to you, I care about you. And I appreciate you all more than I can express. I got to know some better than others of course and you know who you are. Thank you to all of you.

It is just the nature of things that this post will be buried and forgotten in time. But, if anyone reads this please heed my advice. Life itself is amazing and precious. If you are here you are hurting and I am sorry for your pain. But, never act hastily, most times there is a way for your situation to get better. Especially if you are young. You owe it to yourself to consider every single possibility to try to make your situation better and continue to experience the wonders that life has to offer. Also know though that if you do all in your power to try to find any possible way to make your life livable, but find there truly is no way, you would have my support for what it is worth.

I will be CTBing tonight about 1 am EST. My method is N. I will be using a stat dose of Meto one hour before. I have prepared my loved ones as best I can. I put my after life wishes into effect as best I could also.

I am feeling relieved that my pain will finally be ended. So far anyway, I am not afraid. I know in my heart I tried with all I am to find a way to live without pain. My only regret is that someone that meant everything to me always promised to be here holding my hand when I passed. And she won't be.

I will self ban before I take my drink. I will then reset my phone to factory.

Thank you all for everything and I hope my words will help some people in their journeys no matter where it leads them.

I will be around here until I go tonight. But I needed to get this written now.

Best of luck to you. I know that the various N threads will really miss you, you've contributed a lot of well-researched, factual, no-nonsense info. Take care.

 

[chris8000]

Ark I haven't known you for very long, but in that time you've impressed me with how you conduct yourself, I think your a kind and good person for what that's worth.

So sorry you reached this point, I think we'd all like to go out old, content with life and of an heart attack in our sleep, but life oftentimes isn't like that and you have my support.

Wishing you freedom from all suffering.

 

[mediocre]

I don't know you but I have seen you around the forum and I've seen how you've really gone out of your way to help others. I am very sad that we have to lose you but I hope you have a safe journey and you find peace.

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[Shero]

You were a great addition and gave a lot of comfort to many people, you will be greatly missed.

 

[Carina]

I hope you find peace.

 

[jgm63]

@Ark You are certainly one of the greats around here.
One of the most accurate and logical minds.

In case I'm not online later, etc, I'll just say now, I wish you a safe onward journey.
I believe that something majestic awaits...

 

[ValideSultana]

Safe travels, my friend.

 

[6ixxy]

Take care buddy, get a beer ready for me on the other side.

 

[R_N]

I wish you a peaceful exit my friend. I am glad that you at least tried before deciding to go. I hope you find your well deserved peace and rest.

 

[Quax]

Ark, I saw many of your posts on here and I always appreciated them.... for me you are one of the important contributors here and it makes me so sad that you have decided to follow Stan and others. But it is your choice and I support you.
I wish you a good journey, find peace, be free.... with love from me to you.

 

[Soul]

Ohhhh @Ark - so soon ... You shall be missed, and your contributions will shine for future readers as they have for us. I wish you a smooth, peaceful journey. (((Hug)))

 

[EmptyArms]

@Ark well I dont think I've ever said so much as hello to you, and here we are at goodbye already. I regret that immediately. Could you give me a few more days to put that right?
No, I thought not. There's nothing in anything you wrote to suggest this is anything other that your carefully planned and logical last act.
I have ready a great many of your posts here, and I think it's fair to say that you brought radical common sense and damned good data as well your compassion.
I dont think I will be alone in being someone who will miss your presence here despite not interacting with you personally.

I wish you the sweetest sleep.

 

[Shivani]

Hello Ark, I went through few of your posts to get a little background about you and I wish I could have done it like you. I am sure your children will be very proud of you. I hope your little one grows up to be the person you have wanted her to be. I hope you find your peace. Wishing you strength....

 

[underthesea]

I will be joining you soon, my fellow traveler! Wishing you a speedy and peaceful journey. Wait for me on the other side!

 

[PeaceisallIwishfor]

I hope to see you in the afterlife Ark, thank you for your help and kindness, I hope we both get the relief and peace we have been searching for.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

We never talked Ark but I always read your posts with interest and meant to pm you. I'm sorry you are at this point in the dark path we all walk. I wish you an end to your suffering as you enter the clearing at the end of your path.

 

[Farmmaa]

It will be hard not to see your posts any more @Ark.
I hope for you all that you seek.

 

[Moony21]

Oh Ark, I will miss you on SS! I enjoyed reading your posts. You are a kind and helpful soul. I wish you the best of luck and a peaceful exit

 

[LMLN]

I will miss you Ark! You are truly a wonderful and caring person. The world will be worse off without you. You have done so much to make SS a great place. Thank you for your contributions here.

I don't want to see you go, none of us do. But this is your decision and we respect it. I hope you find the peace you desire. You will missed!
Peace and love to you. ❤❤❤

 

[TrailerTrash]

Go in peace Ark ..... I'm not far behind you.

 

[WallsClosingInn]

I wish you peace and end to your pain

 

[Nem]

All the best
peace/hugs

 

[Jean Améry]

Sorry to see you go. I respect your decision which is yours and yours alone to make. Have a safe journey.

 

[Ark]

Thank you all for the kind words. I am so happy to read what you all have said.

All I wanted was to be able to help others any way I could in my final days. All of your responses are helping me believe I did just that. Thank you so much.

 

[Jean4]

Thank you all for the kind words. I am so happy to read what you all have said.

All I wanted was to be able to help others any way I could in my final days. All of your responses are helping me believe I did just that. Thank you so much.

And you can change your mind. Did you really expect me to remain silent?

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Oh, Ark!

I've just come out of lurking in the last few days, but I'm glad it was in time to wish you well on your journey.

Your wisdom will live on here for so many of us. Never doubt that you have made a difference.

I'll be thinking of you and wishing you a dignified yet fanciful journey on the wings of eagles.