Venting Well i just got a reminder as to why i should avoid people and never go outside.

[thatguyakira123]

Went to see Solo A Star Wars Story. Was on my way home feeling like shit cuz there was too many people there looking all happy and either in a realtionship or with friends. Walking on my way home and I'm a metal head, so this one old man came up to me, asked me what kind of rock I listen to, I told his metal. Now he's basically one of those rock fans that ONLY likes Hard Rock from the 70s and 80s. Now don't get me wrong, I like hard rock too, but I'm into metal, particularly metal core, which is heaver, faster and sings about mental illness and suicide.

Tried my best to explain to him my point of view, but he's one of those people that not only think their opinion is fact but are very egotistical and dogmatic about it, well I guess I just discribed every fandom ever. The point is I'm very terrible at argument, discussions and social interaction. I use to be a person that would put my headphones in my ear, stair at the ground and ignore everyone, even if they're calling me. Now my humanity switch is back on and I fucking hate it. I'm so desperate to have some sort of affection that I contradict what I know is best for me. And I am disappointed that I took of my headphones and gave that grandpa the time of day, I wish I just kept it on and just keep on walking. Or at the very least don't take him seriously, another thing I use to do so well.

I'm loosing what little grip I have on my mind. I really want to CTB so that I won't have to deal with my mind anymore. I'm sorry if this is all over the place. I'm drunk atm.

 

[Life sucks]

Fandoms are toxic af. Why not let people enjoy what they want? They just want to make things looks superior or inferior.
I quit all communities and enjoy everything by myself and never share it with others.

But yea I understand they can ruin everything one can enjoy. Gladly I don't share my interests with others.

 

[CatLover]

Perhaps in his own clumsy way he was trying to make a connection and a friend? Just to look at it from another angle - it seems to me that there are an awful lot of lonely people out there, and many of them lack proper social skills or the ability to make friends. I know one local lady, she's an artist and she's interesting but also very aggressive, sounds a bit similar to this guy, she's always got to be right and only the things SHE likes are worth anything. (For example, she told me to stop talking about my cats - 'I know you like your cats but I think cats are disgusting, please don't talk to me about them.' Since cats are about the only joy I find in life any more (hence the username) if we're going to rule that topic out completely, I don't really want to be her friend.

She's single and 'of a certain age' like me with no children, I initially thought we could be friends. She talks all the time about how lonely she is, but I've discovered that she is impossible to be friends with (for me at least). She definitely doesn't realise how anxious she makes other people or how aggressive and unpleasant she's being. She literally doesn't have a clue. I've tried telling her but she just gets upset and offended so I gave up - I doubt she can change at the age she is so trying to explain it to her just seemed cruel. I know it's her not me (at least this time) as several other people have said the same thing to me.

It seems to me that many people are out there, all lonely in our own little hell, wanting desperately to make friends but unable to. I think it also gets more difficult the older you get, especially if you're living alone. I cannot imagine sharing my living space with somebody else any more, even a partner who I presumably would love. Humans are a social species, we WANT to have others around, but then they just seem to piss me off and irritate me. It really does just make me miserable either way :(

 

[thatguyakira123]

Perhaps in his own clumsy way he was trying to make a connection and a friend?

Thats is an interresting story and similar. Luckily this dude was a strager I never met before, he had the audacity to tell me he's gonna teach about real rock. Thing is though, he has a brother and a daughter that he had no issue sharing with me for some reason. Why doesn't he go bother them. Honestly if I wasn't nice or weak I would've insulted the shit out of what he like and kicked his ass.

Also I love key keys as well. :3

Fandoms are toxic af. Why not let people enjoy what they want? They just want to make things looks superior or inferior.
I quit all communities and enjoy everything by myself and never share it with others.

But yea I understand they can ruin everything one can enjoy. Gladly I don't share my interests with others.

I do the same online as well as offline. Used to be that if I came across them in the real world, I'd ignore them or not take them too seriously. Now it's like it's more easer to do that online than off.

 

[millefeui]

very aggressive, sounds a bit similar to this guy, she's always got to be right and only the things SHE likes are worth anything.

Sounds like my mother. She even hates cats (why would you hate a pacific, harmless animal?). Let me tell you, people like that get tiring SO fast. These days my mother's screeching voice is enough to make me sigh.

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Sorry for the bad experience, OP.

Interestingly, I had an uncomfortable thing happen to me earlier. I went to drawing classes, and I took the bus this time. Now, before anything else, I have nothing against people being overweight or anything like that. None of my business. But... this HUGE lady, tall and overweight sat besides me. And that would have been fine. A little cramped, but what can she do, right? Most of the space she took were on her extremely wide hips (like, wow), so even a diet wouldn't help that much.

What bothered me was the disrespect and the lack of manners. So she takes most of the space and she also decides to invade the little space I have left for me. I was sitting by the window, and she would almost lay down on top of me to point towards stuff outside, talking (VERY loudly, my loud music on headphone wasn't enough to block the sound of their voices) to her friends. There was a time she moved her body towards her friends on the other side of the bus, leaving that gigantic butt towards me. Goddammit. Why would you do that.

Manners and respect aren't optional, people.

 

[thatguyakira123]

Manners and respect aren't optional, people.

True. And fuck I dunno why people just love being such raging attention whores. Granted one could argue that we're doing something similar on here. The difference is that we're not in people's faces and what we post is limited to those who chose to view the thread.

I have to pass infront of his brother's everytime I go down the road. *sigh* Now I'll have to walk on the other sidewalk, which is the shoulder, cuz governmentz r too cheap to makes 2 walks.

 

[Tiburcio]

Humans are a social species, we WANT to have others around

Well, I think I've been missing something...

 

[EmotionlessWanderer]

I can't imagine how much of a freak he will think I am if I met and told him I only listen to anime songs and game soundtracks.

 

[Xaphous]

I get scared of peoples ego and personality differences, but much more so if they are dominating or very extroverted type. If they are not open minded and very biased I just want to run away. I like open minded people. If I had a choice I would tend to avoid those people, but since I am alone without anyone I am perpetually avoiding everyone anyway. It's my norm, and I'm used to my own hell. It's awful when you make an effort with what little energy you have and just have another bad experience. I just had bad experiences with a-holes so I accepted being alone always even though I'm so starved of company. A strong connection with someone like-minded is priceless.

 

[Final Escape]

Perhaps in his own clumsy way he was trying to make a connection and a friend? Just to look at it from another angle - it seems to me that there are an awful lot of lonely people out there, and many of them lack proper social skills or the ability to make friends. I know one local lady, she's an artist and she's interesting but also very aggressive, sounds a bit similar to this guy, she's always got to be right and only the things SHE likes are worth anything. (For example, she told me to stop talking about my cats - 'I know you like your cats but I think cats are disgusting, please don't talk to me about them.' Since cats are about the only joy I find in life any more (hence the username) if we're going to rule that topic out completely, I don't really want to be her friend.

She's single and 'of a certain age' like me with no children, I initially thought we could be friends. She talks all the time about how lonely she is, but I've discovered that she is impossible to be friends with (for me at least). She definitely doesn't realise how anxious she makes other people or how aggressive and unpleasant she's being. She literally doesn't have a clue. I've tried telling her but she just gets upset and offended so I gave up - I doubt she can change at the age she is so trying to explain it to her just seemed cruel. I know it's her not me (at least this time) as several other people have said the same thing to me.

It seems to me that many people are out there, all lonely in our own little hell, wanting desperately to make friends but unable to. I think it also gets more difficult the older you get, especially if you're living alone. I cannot imagine sharing my living space with somebody else any more, even a partner who I presumably would love. Humans are a social species, we WANT to have others around, but then they just seem to piss me off and irritate me. It really does just make me miserable either way :(

I'd rather kill myself than live with other people again. I'm a bitter, depressed, middle aged lady at this point, ready to go.

 

[Life sucks]

I can't imagine how much of a freak he will think I am if I met and told him I only listen to anime songs and game soundtracks.

This is almost what I listen to also. I don't care what people say. The music is legendary and I don't get bored of it at all. One of my dreams is to learn music and do vgm remixes and stuff but its only a dream.