I'm stuck deciding whether I want to be held longer in psych wards or not. I had a serious attempt, was held in ER then transported to the psych ward the same night. Got let out the next day, because I was so cooperative. Went home, broke down and it made me spiral worse. They never hold me for long, and maybe that's something to be envious over or whatever but damn, it feels like I'm not being taken seriously enough or like my attempts aren't "worth" the time. You'd think being diagnosed with both BPD and bipolar I'd be given more attention.
Was also informed I'd be contacted by outpatient services within a few days of my discharge.. it's been weeks.. radio silence. Losing hope again, feels like even the healthcare system has shown me I'm not worth the help