I'm so stressed and I absolutely know I will have to suicide soon over economic reasons. The person I stay with is beginning to resent me I think. I don't want to be a burden obviously. At least I'm suiciding because I have to not because I chose this for myself, which does make it a little easier. I know this is not all my fault. I was disadvantaged from the very beginning in life.
This breaks my heart that you feel you are in the position. This should never be the reason that someone feels they need to CTB. I don't know your situation at all, but I want you to know that sometimes things can feel dark and hopeless, but sometimes these things can get better. Is there no one else you can stay with? No one else that can help? No programs to help? Family, friends, etc?
Maybe if you speak with the person you are living with and tell them your feelings they will understand and be a little more accommodating for a while longer?
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
Economical and financial issues can hit us really hard. For some people these issues are temporary, some can cope with them really long.
I wish you strength on your path no matter what your final decision is...
I wish you strength on your path no matter what your final decision is...
For me economic problems are going to be permanent because as the economy is destroyed it will further make life depressing. I don't have family, I struggle to maintain friendships, there's no assistance for me. It's like I'm backed into a corner. I have borderline personality disorder too so that further complicates things. I can't feel safe in relationships.
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
Yes, I know how it feels. As for me, it is very stressing because very often I cannot afford even basic stuff like food. Well, even if I try hard and make 10 different incomes in a short time-span, that may not be enough because of incoming debts and due to the fact that I have literally nothing.
pthnrdnojvsc
Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
- Aug 12, 2019
- 2,641
This lockdown is destroying the economy. I have no hope of getting a job because of this lockdown. I'll have to move up my ctb date to much sooner than i had planned before i could reprogram my subconscious mind to accept my death . How many millions of people will be like you and me jobLess etc. because of this lockdown?
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I'm sorry for your situation. You do what's best for you whatever you think it may be.
The impact on deaths from the lockdown is way worse than the deaths from the flu. Corona has a 99% recovery rate but suicide is permanent. But this isn't about the virus it is a purposeful destruction of the economy and people. Don't think psychopathic rulers care about the people because they don't. They want to reduce the world population to just 500 million so this falls in line with the goal. It's also a cover for what was a coming economic collapse. The rulers can no longer hide the fraud of this system so they are using corona to cover up the problems of central banking and planning.
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