Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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1. the gold standard: Nembutal
2. sodium nitrite
3.carbon monoxide



I know I'm not ever going to be capable of any others. I'm very afraid of pain or gore.

Does anyone else have an order of preference or have you decided on one way only?
 
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TheEndisNear121200

Student
Oct 10, 2020
109
I would say the same but none of those methods are accessible to me sadly. I will have to go with hanging
 
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Deleted member 19654

Working towards recovery.
Jul 9, 2020
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1. N
2. SN
3. Go get a skydiving license and then "forget" to open the parachute till you go splat.
 
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Homecoming

Wizard
Aug 14, 2020
644
This is my CTB method preference from what I have bought recently:
1. Sodium Nitrite (Technical Grade) with 99% purity
2. Potassium Cyanide/KCN 99%
3. Sodium Azide 99%
 
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MiseryLovesMyCompany

MiseryLovesMyCompany

Arcanist
Oct 8, 2020
482
N is certainly the best option, but getting it would be really troublesome.
Partial hanging was my chosen method previously, as full is not possible at home, also, I could say that hanging runs in the family. I practiced it a few times and had real attempts as well, though it did not really work out for me, I already explained in another thread why and what made me stop trying.
Thus, I changed my preferred method to SN, acquired everything except for the SN itself, which is currently on the way.
 
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snowflakebreeze

snowflakebreeze

learning to fly
Aug 27, 2020
26
I'd like to keep it simple. Simple and painless are my 2 main factors in choosing a method.

1. SN
2. Partial
3. Drowning / Jumping
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
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I'll only use it if the SN fails (hopefully not!)
Actually it would be great to have an alternate backup right there in easy reach. The cyanide sounds like just the thing. Lucky you to have it!
 
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Infinite Conscious

Infinite Conscious

Experienced
Aug 18, 2020
282
Preference:

1. Nembutal
2. Gun
3. Helium/Nitrogen

Reality:

1. Full suspension hanging
 
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Homecoming

Wizard
Aug 14, 2020
644
Actually it would be great to have an alternate backup right there in easy reach. The cyanide sounds like just the thing. Lucky you to have it!
Cyanide is being sold in online market place and easy to have it if you happen to live in Middle East. I bought it quite cheap (10 grams for just barely 11 USD) :ohhhh:
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
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From the list of what I actually can obtain:

1. 2M2B
2. GBL
3. N₂O
 
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sadworld

sadworld

existence is a nightmare
Aug 25, 2020
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Ohh, this seems really interesting. My preference:

1. N
2. SN
3. Shallow water blackout

I also don't like any gory methods like jumping.
Ohh, this seems really interesting. My preference:

1. N
2. SN
3. Shallow water blackout

I also don't like any gory methods like jumping.
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

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Infinite Conscious

Infinite Conscious

Experienced
Aug 18, 2020
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Ohh, this seems really interesting. My preference:

1. N
2. SN
3. Shallow water blackout

I also don't like any gory methods like jumping.
Ohh, this seems really interesting. My preference:

1. N
2. SN
3. Shallow water blackout

I also don't like any gory methods like jumping.

Why do you repeat yourself?

Why do you repeat yourself?

:wink:
 
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I screwed up

Waiting for the damn bus
Sep 11, 2019
883
1) KCN
2) N
3) die in some terrorist attack....

Reality hopefully SN or hanging.
Edit. Is there something that I can smoke and ctb blissfully ( wishful thinking I know)
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Not a good ctb method.

Good, I've been looking for an expert on GBL! Could you please explain in detail why it's not a good method.
 
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MrBigSad

MrBigSad

Experienced
Sep 30, 2020
216
It is often referred to as liquid mdma but it's not. It's an entirely different drug. Like with many chemicals it is dependant on the amount . You would have to chug like a litre to actually kill you. I'm jumping as chemicals for me are just so unreliable. They won't do what you ask of them.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
It is often referred to as liquid mdma but it's not. It's an entirely different drug. Like with many chemicals it is dependant on the amount . You would have to chug like a litre to actually kill you.

That's very interesting. According to the US National Drug Intelligence Center 4 grams of GHB dissolved in enough liquid to fill a soda bottle cap can be lethal and GBL is equally potent. What do you base your estimation of one litre on? Also, notice that ethanol increases the potency and is common in fatal overdoses.

Note: I just listed my methods in order of preference. I don't recommend anyone else to use GBL.

I'm jumping as chemicals for me are just so unreliable. They won't do what you ask of them.

I want to be in a good mood when I leave and I'm prepared to take my chances.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
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1) N
2) 2M2B
3) SN
4) SA
5) Partial Suspension
6) Gunshot

I have everything needed for the above methods. That's the order I'd use them in unless certain circumstances arise.
 
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Sinkinshyp

Sinkinshyp

Paragon
Sep 7, 2020
947
Actually it would be great to have an alternate backup right there in easy reach. The cyanide sounds like just the thing. Lucky you to have it!

SN is part of the treatment for Cyanide poisoning from what I read- so not sure how that would work. I guess the SN will cancel out the cyanide?
1) prefer to OD in xanax and oxy. I think it would feel better
2) N
3) SN
 
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stormed lucky

Member
Mar 10, 2020
38
someone help me, im ctb in an hour n half, i cant start thread. im in psych unit on section 3. no more can be taken
 
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Meditation guide

Meditation guide

Always was, is, and always shall be.
Jun 22, 2020
6,089
someone help me, im ctb in an hour n half, i cant start thread. im in psych unit on section 3. no more can be taken
I can't tell what you are asking for help with?
 
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stormed lucky

Member
Mar 10, 2020
38
not being on my own when i ligature
ive pretty much got everything ready, just waiting for meds then its my time . im scared the nurses will catch me n not work,
 
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Lupgevif

Lupgevif

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Jul 23, 2020
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I'm not including N because I can't bother risking being scammed or messing something up in the deep web.

1. SN
2. CO
3. Full suspension hanging
 
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stormed lucky

Member
Mar 10, 2020
38
i tried to hang myself before i was here, full suspension, how different are they?
 

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