Venting Watching gore as a form of self harm

[Anxi0usandDepressed]

Me when I expose myself to Mexican cartel videos as a form of self harm and feel absolutely numb and dead inside afterwards.

 

[firepunch]

Damn, I do too. We may have the same site in mind. I watch suicidal people die and I feel terrible afterwards, but I also feel like I'm someone new who've been exposed to the reality of the world we live in. It's so different from movies like gun shots for exemple : the death is really ungraceful, the body just folds and falls straight. There is no such thing as a theatrical fall backwards with slow-motion. I'm quite naive, but I'll never get not surprised everytime.

 

[RosebyAnyName]

I've weaned myself off of outright gore but sometimes I will willingly seek out threads were people are harassing and humiliating someone for expressing an opinion I agree with. Knowing me, I will automatically relate to the person who expressed the opinion and realize everyone would insult and humiliate me in the same way and that I deserve to suffer too.

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

Yea i watch them every day as a tool to break my mind, i want to see where i end up mentally

I do enjoy watching the whole spectacle, my favourite being machetes to the face and splitting them like coconut.

I like vehicular slaughter, who would have though the human body could explode like a melon and chunks of meat fly everywhere.

I do have a gruesome fascination, i want to work in the industry honestly, clean up or morgue ect.

I really want to see it, internet for now

 

[cyandude]

Yea i watch them every day as a tool to break my mind, i want to see where i end up mentally

omg you're just like me!! i also do stuff to send my conscience into a breaking point to see if I get insane enough I actually manage to muster the courage to CTB. i don't know how long i'll last but I hope it's not long

 

[TheSpookyNameGuy]

omg you're just like me!! i also do stuff to send my conscience into a breaking point to see if I get insane enough I actually manage to muster the courage to CTB. i don't know how long i'll last but I hope it's not long

Yep thats the whole idea bud

I do it to confirm how disgusting life and humanity is, i use it to try and decrease my survival instinct for when the time comes.

It's helped me move along further actually, im enraged 24/7 and because of it ive began getting my things in order.

 

[divinemistress87]

I enjoy watching the jumping suicides it seems freeing