Livingvsdying25
Enlightened
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,188
In a way if I were to draw the earest comparison I'd like to live out the rest of my days the way my friend lives.
Trvelling friends etc. She is not free from all burdens in life but I'm definitely a little jealous. I enjoy time with her tho it always feels like an adventure.
I'm not interested in living I have to wait and in the meantime I'd just like to have an adventure. One after the other. Non ending. I dont really have the resources so just gonna do whatever with what I can.
I dont want to have to worry or care.
Honestly I want to go asap.
I haven't moved yet delays and family stress just make me want to impulse CTB. Then I'll move and it'll be an adjustment period so I can't just CTB right away.
I think I'll be very done and tired after all this. More ready than ever to die.
I may be sick but I'm not ashamed at how I feel.
I accept where I am and want go.
With that being said only recently am I a less to enjoy or do things more "freely". If anyone is looking for companionship or anything...
Hi lol. I'm down to waste away days with whoever's and whatever tbh(obv not just whatever but I'm pretty laid back)
Hmu if your looking just to talk or vent or waste away a day doing something.
TLDR: I'm around if ya wanna waste away the days & I'm able to live knowing I'll CTB soon but the wait gets hard.
Trvelling friends etc. She is not free from all burdens in life but I'm definitely a little jealous. I enjoy time with her tho it always feels like an adventure.
I'm not interested in living I have to wait and in the meantime I'd just like to have an adventure. One after the other. Non ending. I dont really have the resources so just gonna do whatever with what I can.
I dont want to have to worry or care.
Honestly I want to go asap.
I haven't moved yet delays and family stress just make me want to impulse CTB. Then I'll move and it'll be an adjustment period so I can't just CTB right away.
I think I'll be very done and tired after all this. More ready than ever to die.
I may be sick but I'm not ashamed at how I feel.
I accept where I am and want go.
With that being said only recently am I a less to enjoy or do things more "freely". If anyone is looking for companionship or anything...
Hi lol. I'm down to waste away days with whoever's and whatever tbh(obv not just whatever but I'm pretty laid back)
Hmu if your looking just to talk or vent or waste away a day doing something.
TLDR: I'm around if ya wanna waste away the days & I'm able to live knowing I'll CTB soon but the wait gets hard.
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