Was your life always terrible or was it good?

[Onomotopoeia]

it was never terrible but never really good either. It just was. When I was younger life had sharp edges and everything was painful. Those sharp edges have faded but in contrast everything is very bland. I have very seriously considered developing a drug habit just to see if I could spiral like I seemed to when i was younger. Ironically I miss those sharp edges of pain. In hindsight it's the only way I ever knew I was truly alive.

 

[kkatt]

So many people think my life was glamorous and exciting because it was a succession of parties and a string of days getting wasted. Those people only see the fun side of that life. There is no high without a low.
I have nothing and nobody to show for that time. My health is apalling due to stabbings,assaults and good old self-neglect.
There were opportunities too. Also frittered away. I honestly can't think of a single thing I touched that hasn't turned to crap.

 

[Help_Me]

Unfortunately, it never used to be good. My life was a big mistake right from the very beginning.

 

[SkyBlue]

For me, it's been worse and better times. Most of the time, the bad times were bad, but could not quite rightly be called terrible. And the good times were ok up to good at the time, but anything but as good as they seemed.
Until severe mental illness, disappointment and trauma finally made for a truly terrible time.

I usually look back on my childhood as being a simpler, happier time, but when I actually think about it I realise the amounts of dysfunction in my family and it makes me think things have always been bad; and I only noticed when I got older and started to feel depressed.

Signed. This applies too for me. I considered my childhood as good times for quite some time. But in the wake of great adversity in my whole life, I've been opening my eyes to the truth. It only makes sense. And somewhere certain problems one has need to come from. I want to say, I really like your reflectiveness and the way you acknowledge these things @15dec .

 

[15dec]

For me, it's been worse and better times. Most of the time, the bad times were bad, but could not quite rightly be called terrible. And the good times were ok up to good at the time, but anything but as good as they seemed.
Until severe mental illness, disappointment and trauma finally made for a truly terrible time.



Signed. This applies too for me. I considered my childhood as good times for quite some time. But in the wake of great adversity in my whole life, I've been opening my eyes to the truth. It only makes sense. And somewhere certain problems one has need to come from. I want to say, I really like your reflectiveness and the way you acknowledge these things @15dec .

Thank you, I'm sorry it applies to you as well though

 

[ron_g]

With rare exceptions, my life was always terrible. I should have ctb in my early teen years.

 

[Broken]

Mine was actually so amazing and then I ruined it completely all at once from one mistake. I know some people have had miserable lives entirely so I guess it makes me thankful for at least what I had even though it's completely all gone now... and what is it all worth after the fact? nothing

Hmmm that's how I feel a lot of the time as well. What mistake did you make if you don't mind me asking?

 

[time2go]

My life was great, I was living my fucking dream. But the darkness I've always had within me reared its ugly head, and I tore my life apart.