Help wanting to revert into anorexia

[undynee]

hi everyone i know the subject line is very questionable but lately i have had a really hard time retraining myself from self harm and i had very bad anorexia back in the days where i was an teen and nowadays i binge eat alot (im slightly overweight i think but i still feel guilty since i started dieting to revert back to normal bmi the beginning of this year) but basically i wanted advice and/or tips on how i can find the willpower to starve myself instead of resorting to cutting. please do not talk me out of this idea as im very much set on this. please do not be judgmental or hurtful.
the attachment i thought was nice. also no that is nowhere even close where i live it was a diner i visited i live many states over.

 

[nothingspecial]

Chewing gum used to help me when I would starve myself. My body would get ravenous for food and this would usually calm it down for some time. I also used to chew my food and spit it into a plastic bag, however you still intake some calories from doing this. Not sure if this is what you were looking for but I hope it helps somewhat.

 

[undynee]

thank you yes those are the kinds of answers

Chewing gum used to help me when I would starve myself. My body would get ravenous for food and this would usually calm it down for some time. I also used to chew my food and spit it into a plastic bag, however you still intake some calories from doing this. Not sure if this is what you were looking for but I hope it helps somewhat.

thank you

 

[metothemoon]

It is not quite clear to me: do you want to switch your cutting to coping with AN or do you want to resolve your binges?
I personally think it is hard to "switch" from bingeing to restricting again, because your body is used to the food. Since you already have had anorexia, you probably know the "trics".

 

[undynee]

It is not quite clear to me: do you want to switch your cutting to coping with AN or do you want to resolve your binges?
I personally think it is hard to "switch" from bingeing to restricting again, because your body is used to the food. Since you already have had anorexia, you probably know the "trics".

Instead of cutting I want to cope and feel like im punishing myself or have control reverting back
I rot in a room all day with no friends or no one to talk with and my significant other is very neglectful of me and never speaks with me

 

[metothemoon]

Instead of cutting I want to cope and feel like im punishing myself or have control reverting back
I rot in a room all day with no friends or no one to talk with and my significant other is very neglectful of me and never speaks with me

Very sorry you feel like that. That's no way to live. I hope you find a better way to cope. In my experience both options are not the solution…

 

[F@#$]

Speed keeps me from eating.

 

[undynee]

Speed keeps me from eating.

how?

 

[opheliaoveragain]

my current coping method with my AN is constant walking/pacing and smoking cigarettes. trading drugs out for food helps too when I can afford it.

 

[undynee]

my current coping method with my AN is constant walking/pacing and smoking cigarettes. trading drugs out for food helps too when I can afford it.

but I have never bought em before

 

[cotton]

Is anorexia a method? What's the goal friend?

 

[undynee]

Is anorexia a method? What's the goal friend?

yes

 

[cotton]

yes

Just zero daily calories? How long till faint?x

 

[undynee]

Just zero daily calories? How long till faint?x

i think i would love to know

 

[cotton]

Damn SI

 

[lycheeginger]

Is anorexia a method? What's the goal friend?

it's in the nonmethod megathread. eventually your instincts overpower your logic and you binge uncontrollably. i don't think i've ever heard of someone successfully CTBing this way.

 

[F@#$]

how?

I'm not sure how it works. But if I'm on speed I go days without eating. Even if I try I'll end up chewing a couple times and spit whatever out. Even drinking isn't easy.

 

[undynee]

well i think it would make me feel better to have control like that over myself because right now i use self harm excessively instead to punish myself

 

[isolatedl111]

I avoid eating and this is how I am motivated

 

[lnlybnny]

When i was in the depths of my ed it was PURE HELL. I thought I'd just ctb after i was extremely thin but I didn't, just increased my suffering. I might hate myself but i never want to go back into that and could never advise anyone into this, sorry.

 

[RandomGirl52]

cigs can restrict your hunger for a while but i would not recommend this as a method, just like your body wont let you cut arteries it wont let you starve if there is food available. Also starving yourself will make you go insane after a while, way before you actually die