Wanting to commit suicide with my .45 but scared i won't die

[Ktenacious007]

Afraid because my M&P shield only has like a 3.5in barrel and that won't give it enough time to reach velocity to go through my skull.

Afraid because with a map of the brain it showed that there is no brain in the temple area. It starts higher than the temple.

Thinking I should get a 9mm for better penetration. But then afraid I'll live through the smaller bullet and it won't make me bleed out fast enough before cops arrive.

Afraid I will feel it and it won't knock me out immediately.

Afraid I'll die choking on my own blood

 

[HannahB]

Darling I have watched a lot of videos of this as it is my means of ctb also. It's pretty instant. If you shoot side to side you have like a 95% chance of dying. It's when it doesnt cross the brain barrier that most people survive. The best place to aim is for your brainstem. Basically behind your ear near the top of your ear. Even if it doesn't reach velocity the expanding gas fills the cavity destroying the brain anyways. Google hoodsite for vids

 

[*KNAZ*]

Darling I have watched a lot of videos of this as it is my means of ctb also. It's pretty instant. If you shoot side to side you have like a 95% chance of dying. It's when it doesnt cross the brain barrier that most people survive. The best place to aim is for your brainstem. Basically behind your ear near the top of your ear. Even if it doesn't reach velocity the expanding gas fills the cavity destroying the brain anyways. Google hoodsite for vids

Basically put barrel in mouth and aim for back of throat to hit brain stem?

 

[Notf1xable]

I had a M&P 45 shield and the hollow points and I have never shot a gun before. It was my first method before I changed my mind. I would say read the thread and the advice about knowing the placement. I was too worried to leave a mess and also never shot a gun before. Being uncomfortable and never handling one before did get to me. I could have possibly overthought it too, I'm a bit prone to that. Also diagrams of the brain, I was too afraid to go to classes so I was looking up videos of how the gun worked. Any method there is gonna be a process and learning the basics of the gun is gonna be a part of that too. I watched a few videos but I'm also a bit squeamish with that so. I think choosing something is about finding what works.

 

[HannahB]

Basically put barrel in mouth and aim for back of throat to hit brain stem?

To easy to miss that way

 

[*KNAZ*]

To easy to miss that way

I own a 9mm glock and know how to shoot but too scared to use that as my method.

 

[HannahB]

I own a 9mm glock and know how to shoot but too scared to use that as my method.

Why so?

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

I've seen temple shots just destroy optic nerves and come out the other side. Pistol is tricky with a headshot, though a 3.5" barrel is plenty long. Better to go for the heart since it's easy to find. Shotgun is best for the head.

 

[*KNAZ*]

Why so?

I think it's the violence of it and being afraid of botching it.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Afraid I will feel it and it won't knock me out immediately.

Afraid I'll die choking on my own blood

This. Small shotgun is currently my chosen method, but like you, I'm terrified of failing.

 

[*KNAZ*]

Darling I have watched a lot of videos of this as it is my means of ctb also. It's pretty instant. If you shoot side to side you have like a 95% chance of dying. It's when it doesnt cross the brain barrier that most people survive. The best place to aim is for your brainstem. Basically behind your ear near the top of your ear. Even if it doesn't reach velocity the expanding gas fills the cavity destroying the brain anyways. Google hoodsite for vids

So you would have to hold handgun or shotgun behind one ear and aim for the opposite ear all while holding steady and pulling trigger. Sounds tricky.

 

[b12ruinedme]

So jealous of people with guns, if you want to do it in a house full of people I get it, but cant you like buy a silencer (if possible?) and if you won't be found you'll definitely bleed to death even with a small caliber gun.

 

[*KNAZ*]

So jealous of people with guns, if you want to do it in a house full of people I get it, but cant you like buy a silencer (if possible?) and if you won't be found you'll definitely bleed to death even with a small caliber gun.

Or a hotel room. I was going to do it while out camping but it got so damn cold. Realized I would rather get a nice hotel room with a view so I can at least be comfortable before I CTB

 

[MaybeMaybeKnot]

So jealous of people with guns, if you want to do it in a house full of people I get it, but cant you like buy a silencer (if possible?) and if you won't be found you'll definitely bleed to death even with a small caliber gun.

You can buy a suppressor in the US but it's a long process. You have to buy a $300 tax stamp, then there's a background check that takes about 9 months, then the suppressor is another $900. But it doesn't make a gun silent, it just keeps the bullet from breaking the sound barrier. So it's a bang instead of a BOOM.
Incidentally, putting a .22 in a fun noodle makes it pretty quiet.

 

[b12ruinedme]

Or a hotel room. I was going to do it while out camping but it got so damn cold. Realized I would rather get a nice hotel room with a view so I can at least be comfortable before I CTB

That's tricky imo, people in the room next to you sending someone to check on you.. idk

 

[*KNAZ*]

That's tricky imo, people in the room next to you sending someone to check on you.. idk

Yeah they would hear a shot but have to call security and all that. Would take a while before they found you.

 

[Hunter100]

Your gun has plenty capacity to go through your skull. The top reason why people end up living through a head shot is because they flinch at the last second. Otherwise it is 95% fatality with a headshot. I believe around 93% with a chest shot. To me that is the way to go if I don't Od, which for me is my method of choice. Heroin cut with fentanyl is the way to go. You're not coming back as long as no one gives you narcan.

 

[Ktenacious007]

I've seen temple shots just destroy optic nerves and come out the other side. Pistol is tricky with a headshot, though a 3.5" barrel is plenty long. Better to go for the heart since it's easy to find. Shotgun is best for the head.

Seriously.

 

[WhiteDespair]

I was told to take the pistol, put it under your chin with the barrel in the V that forms from the bones of your lower jaw, aim up so the bullet would travel up through jaw flesh -> tongue + mouth -> soft palatte -> brain, and pull the trigger.

 

[Corraled]

Horrible method.

 

[Dio Brando]

just put it in your mouth and press up against the roof of your mouth
not going to miss that one

 

[TAW122]

@Ktenacious007 A .45 has more than enough stopping power to make a successful attempt. If you have hollow points, you are set because hollow points will expand and do significant damage to the surrounding areas when it hits flesh, whereas a FMJ (full metal jacket) would more than likely pass through with less (but still significant) damage. While both HP and FMJ's do end up with death, HP's are more reliable.

@Notf1xable I would suggest going to a gun range to practice with your pistol to get used to firing it. It would give you an idea of what the gun is, and should help put you at ease with firing a weapon.

@MaybeMaybeKnot As for the chest, I'm a bit skeptical of that because that doesn't result in an immediate death, and even if one does die, it is not without enduring agonizing pain for what seems like an eternity becoming succumbing to injuries.

@WhiteDespair That is not a good idea at all. Aiming under the chin is one of the worst ways to utilize this method. You run a significant chance of surviving and/or not dying immediately, only from blood loss. In fact, there is even many posts on the Megathread that specifically discourages aiming under the chin.

@Corraled No, it is one of the most reliable methods if done correctly and properly.

 

[WhiteDespair]

@Ktenacious007 A .45 has more than enough stopping power to make a successful attempt. If you have hollow points, you are set because hollow points will expand and do significant damage to the surrounding areas when it hits flesh, whereas a FMJ (full metal jacket) would more than likely pass through with less (but still significant) damage. While both HP and FMJ's do end up with death, HP's are more reliable.

@Notf1xable I would suggest going to a gun range to practice with your pistol to get used to firing it. It would give you an idea of what the gun is, and should help put you at ease with firing a weapon.

@MaybeMaybeKnot As for the chest, I'm a bit skeptical of that because that doesn't result in an immediate death, and even if one does die, it is not without enduring agonizing pain for what seems like an eternity becoming succumbing to injuries.

@WhiteDespair That is not a good idea at all. Aiming under the chin is one of the worst ways to utilize this method. You run a significant chance of surviving and/or not dying immediately, only from blood loss. In fact, there is even many posts on the Megathread that specifically discourages aiming under the chin.

@Corraled No, it is one of the most reliable methods if done correctly and properly.

@thrw_a_way1221221 thank you for pointing out my mistake.

 

[Dwilson1217]

Check out the firearms megathread in resources pal.

 

[Ktenacious007]

Do you guys think a 9mm would penetrate the skull better?

 

[THCTemplar]

Suppressors have up to a year long waiting period. The gunshot with a suppressor will still be loud enough to alert people. I shoot with em all the time. They are not silent.

So jealous of people with guns, if you want to do it in a house full of people I get it, but cant you like buy a silencer (if possible?) and if you won't be found you'll definitely bleed to death even with a small caliber gun.

 

[Reyki6667]

Just aims your medulla oblungata from your mouth and correct your tragectory by taking the recoil into account, and done.

 

[Roger]

Suppressors have up to a year long waiting period. The gunshot with a suppressor will still be loud enough to alert people. I shoot with em all the time. They are not silent.

For some reason or other, here in UK refer to them as "sound moderators." They need to go on your Firearm Certificate, and are justified for hearing protection or environmental reasons when controlling deer, fox and rabbits (and increasingly wild boar.)

They are particularly effective on subsonic rounds (i.e. most revolvers and pistols which by and large we cannot have here) and on subsonic .22 rimfires. Much of the noise you hear from a high velocity round is the supersonic crack which happens after the bullet has left the muzzle where a moderator has no effect. You notice the effect most markedly in .22RF when you put an HV round down the barrel after having shot subsonics down.

 

[sweetandsanctioned]

Afraid because my M&P shield only has like a 3.5in barrel and that won't give it enough time to reach velocity to go through my skull.

Afraid because with a map of the brain it showed that there is no brain in the temple area. It starts higher than the temple.

Thinking I should get a 9mm for better penetration. But then afraid I'll live through the smaller bullet and it won't make me bleed out fast enough before cops arrive.

Afraid I will feel it and it won't knock me out immediately.

Afraid I'll die choking on my own blood

This is sad but I don't blame you for wanting to die and completely understand as I consider dying too. Personally though, I wouldn't risk a gunshot 'cause even though it seems like a quicker method, it would also be the most devastating suicide attempt to survive from 'cause you would end up extremely disfigured and brain damaged... While also being in enormous pain that is unbearable, even if you do eventually die. No one can ever be 100% sure they will survive or have an instant death but I'm not saying your feelings of wanting to die aren't valid. It's just I personally wouldn't choose this method. I wouldn't choose hanging either, although there has been times where I really felt like it. I guess there's no easy way out really. It's just unfortunate people have been forced into this situation by their parents bringing us here. Anyway, I hope whatever problem you have can get fixed and that things can get better. If not, maybe you can find some comfort here from like-minded people. All the best.

 

[Galileo3630]

I want to emphasize that there is no way to guarantee a successful suicide attempt. Even if a method seems foolproof, there is always a risk of complications or unforeseen factors that can cause it to fail. I don't want to scare you out of your CTB attempt, but I've heard failed suicide attempts with a gun usually lead to the person looking disfigured or becoming a vegetable.