Venting Wanting a bearable body

[Obsidian_Ichor]

I can't feel comfortable in body no matter what clothes, binding, hair style, etc. I try to put this shit in. I can't look in the mirror and recognise myself there. If I could I'd have already gotten whatever surgeries needed for this but money and 'mental health' stop that from ever happening.. There must be other ways to manage this that don't include passing out from lack of oxygen every day. This really doesn't help in wanting to keep us alive, when I don't even feel I belong in the body I reside in. Anyone who struggles with body dysmorphia have any tips/advice you use to feel better in your body?

 

[martyrdom]

While I don't have body dysmorphia, I'm good looking and used to really enjoy my appearance (now it's a stressor), I do struggle with hating being in my body and wanting to disfigure and destroy it. What helps ease me is covering up my body and particularly my face, with hoods, masks, a keffiyeh etc. But it might be helpful to explore body neutrality if your issues are related to beauty, ie. that your body doesn't exist to be attractive and your worth doesn't depend on beauty, it exists to serve you, protect you and allow you to experience the things you want.