Want to CTB but feel guilty because of coronavirus crisis (UK)

[rosetrapped]

I'm desperate to CTB tonight, but I feel bad for the strain this will put on the ambulance service/ hospital/ morgue. Also if I did fail I would likely end up in intensive care which is already desperately needed for the pandemic. I would wait till an easier time for everything and so my family won't be at risk of getting ill either, but I only think it's going to get worse until like June which is too fucking far. Any thoughts, anyone feeling similar ( also I live w my family and they would be the ones to find my body and then try and take me to hospital, which puts them at risk).

 

[one4all]

I'm desperate to CTB tonight, but I feel bad for the strain this will put on the ambulance service/ hospital/ morgue. Also if I did fail I would likely end up in intensive care which is already desperately needed for the pandemic. I would wait till an easier time for everything and so my family won't be at risk of getting ill either, but I only think it's going to get worse until like June which is too fucking far. Any thoughts, anyone feeling similar ( also I live w my family and they would be the ones to find my body and then try and take me to hospital, which puts them at risk).

While i'm not in the same circumstances you are, i live alone. I think this has been covered before in some of the other CoVids threads. Have you poked around a little to see if others are feeling the same way you are?
I do hope you find peace and happiness.

 

[rosetrapped]

While i'm not in the same circumstances you are, i live alone. I think this has been covered before in some of the other CoVids threads. Have you poked around a little to see if others are feeling the same way you are?
I do hope you find peace and happiness.

Thanku <3 and sorry, I'm a bit of an idiot I thought because the site was down the other day and this is a new one all the old content was gone so I didn't bother using the search bar. If anyone can or wants to take this down pls delete the thread, I'll just go to the coronavirus mega thread instead of causing more spam. Apologies again.

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

Are you planning on using a method that is likely to fail?

My only thoughts are that the virus situation sucks, and that really only you can decide what weights to assign to each need and concern.

I myself am not feeling similar, but you're definitely not alone here. Others are having similar struggles.

 

[one4all]

Thanku <3 and sorry, I'm a bit of an idiot I thought because the site was down the other day and this is a new one all the old content was gone so I didn't bother using the search bar. If anyone can or wants to take this down pls delete the thread, I'll just go to the coronavirus mega thread instead of causing more spam. Apologies again.

Why be sorry for a mistake. Don't worry about it, shit happens. I can understand your confusion about the site being down and coming back up. I think they just had to chance the host that allows them to have this place up. The search function was screwed initially, it would only show posts that were made after the move. Thats been resolved now.