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regular john
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- Dec 17, 2020
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do you think guys it makes sense to wait with suicide untill your both parents are dead ? Nobody likes to see his or her kid dead.
I've always thought this but I can no longer wait that long. My parents are only in their early 60s and in very good health. I love my parents and I'm ashamed to say this but I sometimes wish the two of them would be killed in a car crash or something to just free me up to CTB.do you think guys it makes sense to wait with suicide untill your both parents are dead ? Nobody likes to see his or her kid dead.
Do you mind my asking why your father disowned you?My mother is dead and my father just now disowned me, yet I am still holding on. Somedays I really wish I had the courage but I guess its not time.
This could have been written by my cos I feel exactly the same.Outliving your descendants is unnatural and having to bury your own child is probably the most soul crushing tragedy that a parent can face. The guilt that comes from knowing that my parents will never be the same is so painful, but I cannot burden them as I do for the rest of their lives. They have worked so hard to nurture me and provided me with everything they could so that I could grow into a proper adult but I couldn't even give them that. I have spent my entire adult life being sick and useless and I cannot possibly see that changing. I have taken more than my share and I cannot even make up for it by being in a position to care for them when they get too old to care for themselves.
Maybe it is callous, because killing myself is the worst thing I can do to me parents, but I do hope that my death comes with an undercurrent of relief. They worry about me all the time. I refuse to have them sacrifice their final years constantly having to worry about what happens to me after they die.
I was supposed to start an apprenticeship to become in an electrician but I declined the offer because I don't have the money or vehicle to drive to work and he says his reputation is damaged now because he put his name on the line for meDo you mind my asking why your father disowned you?
I was thinking the same. I want to free my mum from me. She worries about me all the time cause I didn't make it in life. I never had proper job etc. She will cry for a couple of days probably but after that she will live quiet and peacefull life for the rest of her life.Outliving your descendants is unnatural and having to bury your own child is probably the most soul crushing tragedy that a parent can face. The guilt that comes from knowing that my parents will never be the same is so painful, but I cannot burden them as I do for the rest of their lives. They have worked so hard to nurture me and provided me with everything they could so that I could grow into a proper adult but I couldn't even give them that. I have spent my entire adult life being sick and useless and I cannot possibly see that changing. I have taken more than my share and I cannot even make up for it by being in a position to care for them when they get too old to care for themselves.
Maybe it is callous, because killing myself is the worst thing I can do to me parents, but I do hope that my death comes with an undercurrent of relief. They worry about me all the time. I refuse to have them sacrifice their final years constantly having to worry about what happens to me after they die.
Well that was my plan. But things are getting shitty. And my parents married young so they are still in their late 40s. Can't wait another 30 odd years lol. They've lived longer than me and have experienced things I never will. So I don't care if they suffer for the rest of their lives due to my ctbdo you think guys it makes sense to wait with suicide untill your both parents are dead ? Nobody likes to see his or her kid dead.