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alternativeway

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Jan 20, 2019
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Pretty sure I have a incurable medical condition but I'm still waiting for the official diagnosis. I'm not able to do 30% of what I could before. Sleeping is hard even.

I have no death wish. But I do have a very strong wish to not suffer miserable days just to run out the clock.

It's crazy how quickly my perspective has changed from attempting drastically to find and fix what is wrong with me to hoping I can make a will and find a peaceful way to check out on purpose. Thinking about N.

I want the official diagnosis to be sure, but also to give my family some small amount of peace from maybe understanding my wanting a clean ending.
 
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Ntothed

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Jan 1, 2019
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In the same exact boat, going today for an upper endoscopy. If it comes back the way I think it is going to, then I will be purchasing N. I am not going to suffer in pain.
 
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HelensNepenthe

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Jan 17, 2019
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In the same exact boat, going today for an upper endoscopy. If it comes back the way I think it is going to, then I will be purchasing N. I am not going to suffer in pain.
Good luck today
 
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