w/ fam

[hybridtheory]

does being around family make anyone else more depressed?
I'm currently surrounded by like my whole family and I just feel very disconnected, and that I don't belong here at all.
ctb crosses my mind more when I'm with them and I'm not quite sure why.

 

[Cant go back]

Yes. I feel exactly the same way, i hate feeling like this but I'd rather be alone. I havent called my folks in months as I just can't bring myself to do it.

 

[DeathWish77]

Both my parents can make me extremely suicidal. There's no other people in the world that do that to me, despite how much poison I see from humanity on a daily basis. And I think it's because they dragged me from non-existence into this world. And once I was born into this nightmare, it was like I immediately owed them something with my every move, or I owed society something. No, I don't owe them or anybody anything. I owe myself the humane act of delivering myself back to where I was before 1995, when everything was perfect.

 

[Pluto]

There was a saying that went something like: nobody pushes our buttons like parents because they are the ones who installed them.

I've had to cut out pretty much my entire family. And that causes other problems of course. Once we are scapegoated by their dysfunction, we are at risk of being socially isolated no matter what we do. Unless you can find some amazing social group to belong to.

 

[Loneliest]

Yeah I feel you. It's funny when I'm home and being with my whole family but I don't feel home at all. Instead I feel stressed and judged

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Just texts from them make me feel worse.

 

[Foogs]

The last time I saw my family (20 months ago) I was an able bodied healthy person. Now I'm chronically in pain and disabled, can barely speak and can't use my hands too much so I can barely communicate at all. Saw them today for the first time since. It was painful, being this husk of the person they once knew.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, I do generally have a good relationship with them, but I often find it exhausting being around them and I am the type of person who is very introverted and I feel a need to isolate myself. I also feel disconnected to them.

 

[noname223]

Yes partly. My parents abused me for over a decade. I am very angry that they destroyed my life.

 

[toolaidback56]

Once we are scapegoated by their dysfunction, we are at risk of being socially isolated no matter what we do. Unless you can find some amazing social group to belong to.

The deepest cut and the ultimate betrayal. Without the sense of belonging you are basically screwed and you get the pleasure of being ostracised and to experience the struggles of this world alone.

 

[noname223]

The deepest cut and the ultimate betrayal. Without the sense of belonging you are basically screwed and you get the pleasure of being ostracised and to experience the struggles of this world alone.

We have very weird relationship. I live in the same house as my mom she regrets her wrongdoing. I have so fucking stupid parents. My sister also became ill. Our childhood was pure hell. But they did not want to hurt us. WTF

 

[Moose.000]

Yes. Family, friends, society in general. I'd rather be alone.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Yes i feel disconnected from everybody. Very much not into being social. I have to participate bare minimum so i dont feel weird

 

[hʚll]

same, i feel worse around them. the only time i'm alone is when i go to the bathroom lol
i have some antinatalist resentment too
also if they weren't with me, it would make killing myself so much easier.

i was thinking.. is like living with strangers that you are expected to love, to call "family", no matter what. you're not given any choice, everything is random, it makes me sick
(sorry if offtopic)