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Blue
- Aug 2, 2020
- 773
Due to circumstances that have been getting worse and worse, I realized last night I'm very likely to leave by the end of next month. Maybe sooner, god willing. I have no hope or want for hope left. I think that's when you know you're capable and ready to leave - even false hope in the form of cash, material things, and a fresh start don't tempt me. I know they're all just manifestations of survival instinct - your brain lying to you and trying to find reasons to keep living when you know damn well your life is going to get worse.