Venting Venting

[EternalSoul]

Today I need to vent about a few things:

Job Opportunities
Well first of all I just graduated from my medical program and I can get a really good job anytime I want now. The issues is this… feel like I should wait to start a new job because why would I get a professional job only to be waiting to CTB anytime. I feel like it makes sense not to ruin any opportunities that I get and set myself up to ruin them. Because I know at some point eventually I am gonna CTB, so like I feel as if I am making a smart choice, and if I live through my second attempt (which I hope I don't) then I can start a new position. I gotta be smart about it at least.

My ex boyfriends birthday is today:
Today is my ex boyfriend's birthday, due to my mental health we are separated. I wish more than anything that I could be there to celebrate his birthday with him. Even though we're not together and have not talked in months I bought him a gift and wrote him a poem for his birthday even though I probably won't be able to ever give it to him, I just wanted to do it. Maybe it's crazy or really sweet but I can only hold all my love that has been left in my hands.

That's all I have to say for right now…

 

[deadbidaylight]

Congratulations on completing your medical program! You should be very proud of that, it takes a lot of effort and determination to get there. I'm proud of you.

You could always mail that to your ex if you won't physically see him. It never hurts to show someone you care about them. I'm sure he'd be happy to receive it.

 

[EternalSoul]

Congratulations on completing your medical program! You should be very proud of that, it takes a lot of effort and determination to get there. I'm proud of you.

You could always mail that to your ex if you won't physically see him. It never hurts to show someone you care about them. I'm sure he'd be happy to receive it.

Thank you for your kind words. In regards to the gift I think he would be upset to get a gift from me that's why I have to keep it for myself- and hope maybe one day I can give it to him. I done it for Christmas and Valentines so far.

 

[deadbidaylight]

Thank you for your kind words. In regards to the gift I think he would be upset to get a gift from me that's why I have to keep it for myself- and hope maybe one day I can give it to him. I done it for Christmas and Valentines so far.

That's really sweet of you regardless of how he'd respond. I'm sorry that your mental health was able to get in the way of your relationship. It's a very real thing, but doesn't make it any less painful. My heart is with you.

 

[EternalSoul]

That's really sweet of you regardless of how he'd respond. I'm sorry that your mental health was able to get in the way of your relationship. It's a very real thing, but doesn't make it any less painful. My heart is with you.

Awww thank you so much!!!!