moody_cupcakes
Member
- Oct 7, 2024
- 19
Its been a day of bad emotions, it feels like it never ends. Have everything set up for tomorrow morning with SN... was supposed to do it yesterday but was interrupted and was being impulsive Hopefully I'm able to, doing it early so no interruptions. I thought maybe there was hope but every day things just seem worse and worse. Sorry for the vent. It's been a hard day. Every day seems like a bad day. Most people wouldn't know about my depression because I'm always laughing and making jokes, but when I get home, I'm exhausted of faking it. The moment I'm not laughing I get bombarded with questions, I guess I got them used to my mask, but i cant do it for too long, i get tired and feel fake. I have always been the weird one in my family, not charismatic like the rest of them or have a million friends. Even when I got married no one understood because my ex is charismatic and I'm not. I Will always just be broken and damaged according to them. I just need peace. Nothing will ever change. This needs to end.
