Kadaver
let death be kinder than man
- Aug 11, 2023
- 127
My first post here so Hi hello. I'm just going to be venting sorry
I feel like I shouldn't be alive. I feel like every part of me is wrong. All I want is to give and receive love but I just don't think anyone will be romantically attracted to me.
I'm trans and often look through personals ads on Reddit. Most aren't aimed at me so I just scroll on by. But one was so perfect. The listing described me so well but they don't want someone who is trans. It makes me think no one does.
I just want someone to love and be loved by. I want to do cute boyfriendly things and make my partner feel loved. If online I want late night phone calls with them when we both just can't sleep.
On top of my love life being nonexistent I just don't know what to do. I don't know what kind of career I want or what I wish to pursue in life. I just feel like I was damned since I was a baby.
I feel like my parents and their issues ruined me and stole away all of my potential and dreams. The more I live and experience life the more I feel like I shouldn't. Like its just not made for me— or rather I'm not made for it.
I'm terrified of death but I'm just so tired of living at the same time. I don't think I'll ever have the courage to kms.
I'm already in therapy but I just don't know how to talk to my therapist about this kind of thing without the risk of being hospitalized.
Since I'm new here id love to hear about some of yall. Feel free to vent or anything in the comments.
I feel like I shouldn't be alive. I feel like every part of me is wrong. All I want is to give and receive love but I just don't think anyone will be romantically attracted to me.
I'm trans and often look through personals ads on Reddit. Most aren't aimed at me so I just scroll on by. But one was so perfect. The listing described me so well but they don't want someone who is trans. It makes me think no one does.
I just want someone to love and be loved by. I want to do cute boyfriendly things and make my partner feel loved. If online I want late night phone calls with them when we both just can't sleep.
On top of my love life being nonexistent I just don't know what to do. I don't know what kind of career I want or what I wish to pursue in life. I just feel like I was damned since I was a baby.
I feel like my parents and their issues ruined me and stole away all of my potential and dreams. The more I live and experience life the more I feel like I shouldn't. Like its just not made for me— or rather I'm not made for it.
I'm terrified of death but I'm just so tired of living at the same time. I don't think I'll ever have the courage to kms.
I'm already in therapy but I just don't know how to talk to my therapist about this kind of thing without the risk of being hospitalized.
Since I'm new here id love to hear about some of yall. Feel free to vent or anything in the comments.