NSFW vent number one billion, move along

[Captain laser]

i'll try to articulate the feelings that im too scared to say to anyone, frankly even here im scared, as a lot of it has to do with secluded internet spaces, and my mind is a mess and i cant seem to remember anything correctly, but here goes.
i've seen a lot of things i shouldnt have at a very young age, and later when i was 16 i was around people who roleplayed as family members and fucked eachother, which, fine i guess but i hate you,(i also recall finding out a friend my age was actively participating, dear god i hope she's okay) and although i myself never participated there was always an air of "this is completely normal, you just hate counterculture if you dont wanna fuck your sister!" and im too scared to talk about it to anyone, as everytime i search about my repulsion and fear all i hear is "have you tried being more sex positive you bigot :)?" and i just cant do it anymore, every little thing scares me and fear blends into hate and i just wanna go back to being a kid when i could just cover my ears and call it gross, im trembling, my legs are shaking, i cant live normaly, i'll just CTB

 

[submarinedownsea]

U went to a very hard situation, i mean u look to the devil in the eyes, no one can move on quick to this. Just keep in mind, if u dont wanna do it its okay, no one can call u coward, idiot or anything cause u dont feel confortable with sex at the moment, neither feel gross with toughts that are clearly not yours, that people puted in some moment in ur head. Dont hate yourself for it, give you space, just know that this is a safe space that u can always open up, everyone here will suport u. All love!
(Sorry if i misunderstood something)

 

[juneisdoomed]

i think being repulsed by incest roleplays is normal, at least to the average person. it's crazy to me that people see you as bigoted and not "sex-positive" for not liking incest lmfao. having taboo fantasies is one thing, but, in my opinion, acting on those fantasies with other people, even if they're not actually family, just brings people one step closer to actually engaging in incest. i don't see why people have shunned you for feeling the way that you do. i think that's ridiculous, especially considering that witnessing all that from a young age negatively affected you in the long run. those people are too far consumed by their spaces that they fail to take into consideration the feelings of those on the outside.