Draconian Alone
Member
- Jul 20, 2024
- 15
Should've have this many personalities fighting for dominance in here. It pisses me off. I don't even have any DID, it's just versions of me fighting for time to be in the spotlight like my social life is some bullshit reality TV show. I hear that a lot of other people on the spectrum have this problem, they mask so much they don't even know who they are.
I guess I should list them off:
- Main(???) one is all stormy and aggressive I like the anger. If keeps me sharp. It also boosts my self esteem knowing I'm like I'm a bear trap ready to snap on these bitch ass sheeple who keep shunning me and looking at me funny.
- Really high strung and anxious. But also pretty smart. In worthless school stuff at least. Most polite one. My dad calls me, "worker bee" at the start of my shift. I use this one a lot for strangers and authority figures and stuff.
- Soft and prey like thing always nervous about being seen in a bad way and is easily startled fuck this side of me it was burned into my head by my fucking parents I wish I could crush this thing into a little ball and toss it out of my subconscious.
- Fun dumbass. Pretty confident but very hard to ease out of hiding. Most seen around my brother(when he doesn't treat me like a freak) and my close friends(before they inevitably abandon me HAHAHAHAHA)
I'm so fucking mad about it pisses me out I just want to burn everything about my life down and get another chance!!!!!
Anybody got any advice on how to destroy my soft side and whittle down the worker drone one??
Thank You
I guess I should list them off:
- Main(???) one is all stormy and aggressive I like the anger. If keeps me sharp. It also boosts my self esteem knowing I'm like I'm a bear trap ready to snap on these bitch ass sheeple who keep shunning me and looking at me funny.
- Really high strung and anxious. But also pretty smart. In worthless school stuff at least. Most polite one. My dad calls me, "worker bee" at the start of my shift. I use this one a lot for strangers and authority figures and stuff.
- Soft and prey like thing always nervous about being seen in a bad way and is easily startled fuck this side of me it was burned into my head by my fucking parents I wish I could crush this thing into a little ball and toss it out of my subconscious.
- Fun dumbass. Pretty confident but very hard to ease out of hiding. Most seen around my brother(when he doesn't treat me like a freak) and my close friends(before they inevitably abandon me HAHAHAHAHA)
I'm so fucking mad about it pisses me out I just want to burn everything about my life down and get another chance!!!!!
Anybody got any advice on how to destroy my soft side and whittle down the worker drone one??
Thank You