Vent even though no one really reads it lol (kinda need help here)

[RyleIsRiledUp]

Man, im so tired rn. I slept at 5 am. i stayed up all night for no reason. I've lost my "Stay calm and take it easy" streak. I feel guilty abt giving others the advice to relax and take it slow even though i couldnt do it myself. i'm so sleep deprived rn. im hving memory fog. i dun remember most easy to remember things. i dun remember eating dinner, or going to sleep day before yesterday. I dun remember what all i really did yesterday. Ik studying rn wont help me at all. But i seriously dunno anything frm my econ syllabus. I'd end up crying if i give my exam in this state.
I dun wanna drink energy drinks or coffee rn cuz sleep deprivation + caffeine just makes you jitter. like your brain is sleeping but heart is running a mile a second. I kinda regret it. No no, I completely regret it. i dunno mannn... I kinda am start to see shyt. while staring at the ceiling last night, i saw silver-ish confetti things floating around. that's a sign of severe SD. I kinda am panicking internally. I tried to call my dad to talk it out with him (my therapist also told me to be open with one of my parents because i've kinda closed myself off recently and stopped talking abt my worst of issues all together). My dad din pick up. He's prolly busy rn.

Time is ticking and each second makes me more sleep and anxious. I kinda am hoping for a crash so that i can skip the exam. but that's not th eright mindset. im gonna talk it out with my parents, though it scares me. not them, but opening up scares me. so yea, im here cuz im anon so i dun hv to worry much (i still worry. i think 100000 times before making a post here myself). Idk my post not getting any responses oddly makes me feel lonlier but it's okei ig. I can manage it, right?? sorry if that sounded accusatory. I din mean it

I fr cant feel my body rnn. i hv to constantly move to feel it's real. so yea yea yea... I wanna sleep, my body is like "BITCH GO TO SLEEP. WE'RE TIRED OF OVERTIME." but my brain is anxious af. i'm so so so tired mannn...

What should I do? Kinda need help here....
I'm sorry if im a bother tho...

thx gng<3

 

[U. A.]

Sounds like you need to sleep.

 

[quietbird]

Man, im so tired rn. I slept at 5 am. i stayed up all night for no reason. I've lost my "Stay calm and take it easy" streak. I feel guilty abt giving others the advice to relax and take it slow even though i couldnt do it myself. i'm so sleep deprived rn. im hving memory fog. i dun remember most easy to remember things. i dun remember eating dinner, or going to sleep day before yesterday. I dun remember what all i really did yesterday. Ik studying rn wont help me at all. But i seriously dunno anything frm my econ syllabus. I'd end up crying if i give my exam in this state.
I dun wanna drink energy drinks or coffee rn cuz sleep deprivation + caffeine just makes you jitter. like your brain is sleeping but heart is running a mile a second. I kinda regret it. No no, I completely regret it. i dunno mannn... I kinda am start to see shyt. while staring at the ceiling last night, i saw silver-ish confetti things floating around. that's a sign of severe SD. I kinda am panicking internally. I tried to call my dad to talk it out with him (my therapist also told me to be open with one of my parents because i've kinda closed myself off recently and stopped talking abt my worst of issues all together). My dad din pick up. He's prolly busy rn.

Time is ticking and each second makes me more sleep and anxious. I kinda am hoping for a crash so that i can skip the exam. but that's not th eright mindset. im gonna talk it out with my parents, though it scares me. not them, but opening up scares me. so yea, im here cuz im anon so i dun hv to worry much (i still worry. i think 100000 times before making a post here myself). Idk my post not getting any responses oddly makes me feel lonlier but it's okei ig. I can manage it, right?? sorry if that sounded accusatory. I din mean it

I fr cant feel my body rnn. i hv to constantly move to feel it's real. so yea yea yea... I wanna sleep, my body is like "BITCH GO TO SLEEP. WE'RE TIRED OF OVERTIME." but my brain is anxious af. i'm so so so tired mannn...

What should I do? Kinda need help here....
I'm sorry if im a bother tho...

thx gng<3

You might want to explore looking into sleep hygiene, trying meditation, or using melatonin. If those don't help, a psychiatrist could recommend medication to reduce anxiety or support better sleep. I also think you could really benefit from working with a therapist, as I'm concerned you may be stuck in a self-sabotaging cycle that's hard to break without outside support. I'm sorry you're going through this, and I truly hope things improve. Sometimes we can't fix everything on our own, and seeking professional help can be the most helpful next step.

 

[RyleIsRiledUp]

You might want to explore looking into sleep hygiene, trying meditation, or using melatonin. If those don't help, a psychiatrist could recommend medication to reduce anxiety or support better sleep. I also think you could really benefit from working with a therapist, as I'm concerned you may be stuck in a self-sabotaging cycle that's hard to break without outside support. I'm sorry you're going through this, and I truly hope things improve. Sometimes we can't fix everything on our own, and seeking professional help can be the most helpful next step.

My doc prescribed me meds (Zyprexa) to help me sleep but they make me extremely sleepy, wayy too hungry and nauseous. I was prescribed those before too so ik lol. My dad decided that i shouldnt take em rn cuz my exams are going on. My doc told us we can start whenever we want and himself recommended that I should start taking em after my exams are over. Also, I unfortunately couldnt go to my therapist's this saturday cuz she was on leave so I gotta wait till sat again. dw I'm getting professional help so yea. I did sleep rn for a few hrs. i still feel weird and dizzy but yea, atleast i got sm rest. i kinda get really anxious during exam season so I over do things to ensure i dun fail or smthing. Mostly I feel embarrassed if i write sm dumb answer cuz i feel like the teach who'd check it would judge me or smthing (irrational ik)
Thx for the advice tho, hun<3

 

[spacealiens]

Man, im so tired rn. I slept at 5 am. i stayed up all night for no reason. I've lost my "Stay calm and take it easy" streak. I feel guilty abt giving others the advice to relax and take it slow even though i couldnt do it myself. i'm so sleep deprived rn. im hving memory fog. i dun remember most easy to remember things. i dun remember eating dinner, or going to sleep day before yesterday. I dun remember what all i really did yesterday. Ik studying rn wont help me at all. But i seriously dunno anything frm my econ syllabus. I'd end up crying if i give my exam in this state.
I dun wanna drink energy drinks or coffee rn cuz sleep deprivation + caffeine just makes you jitter. like your brain is sleeping but heart is running a mile a second. I kinda regret it. No no, I completely regret it. i dunno mannn... I kinda am start to see shyt. while staring at the ceiling last night, i saw silver-ish confetti things floating around. that's a sign of severe SD. I kinda am panicking internally. I tried to call my dad to talk it out with him (my therapist also told me to be open with one of my parents because i've kinda closed myself off recently and stopped talking abt my worst of issues all together). My dad din pick up. He's prolly busy rn.

Time is ticking and each second makes me more sleep and anxious. I kinda am hoping for a crash so that i can skip the exam. but that's not th eright mindset. im gonna talk it out with my parents, though it scares me. not them, but opening up scares me. so yea, im here cuz im anon so i dun hv to worry much (i still worry. i think 100000 times before making a post here myself). Idk my post not getting any responses oddly makes me feel lonlier but it's okei ig. I can manage it, right?? sorry if that sounded accusatory. I din mean it

I fr cant feel my body rnn. i hv to constantly move to feel it's real. so yea yea yea... I wanna sleep, my body is like "BITCH GO TO SLEEP. WE'RE TIRED OF OVERTIME." but my brain is anxious af. i'm so so so tired mannn...

What should I do? Kinda need help here....
I'm sorry if im a bother tho...

thx gng<3

I wish you the best my friend I feel lonely here too it bes Quiet but eating and sleeping is important id recommend you take a break if possible and rest and get some good food and disconnect from everything that's causing you stress for at least a week and you will be alot more functional. Anyhow god bless go get some good food and have a few days rest it will also help you process your thoughts and possibly find solutions when you can take a step back

Man, im so tired rn. I slept at 5 am. i stayed up all night for no reason. I've lost my "Stay calm and take it easy" streak. I feel guilty abt giving others the advice to relax and take it slow even though i couldnt do it myself. i'm so sleep deprived rn. im hving memory fog. i dun remember most easy to remember things. i dun remember eating dinner, or going to sleep day before yesterday. I dun remember what all i really did yesterday. Ik studying rn wont help me at all. But i seriously dunno anything frm my econ syllabus. I'd end up crying if i give my exam in this state.
I dun wanna drink energy drinks or coffee rn cuz sleep deprivation + caffeine just makes you jitter. like your brain is sleeping but heart is running a mile a second. I kinda regret it. No no, I completely regret it. i dunno mannn... I kinda am start to see shyt. while staring at the ceiling last night, i saw silver-ish confetti things floating around. that's a sign of severe SD. I kinda am panicking internally. I tried to call my dad to talk it out with him (my therapist also told me to be open with one of my parents because i've kinda closed myself off recently and stopped talking abt my worst of issues all together). My dad din pick up. He's prolly busy rn.

Time is ticking and each second makes me more sleep and anxious. I kinda am hoping for a crash so that i can skip the exam. but that's not th eright mindset. im gonna talk it out with my parents, though it scares me. not them, but opening up scares me. so yea, im here cuz im anon so i dun hv to worry much (i still worry. i think 100000 times before making a post here myself). Idk my post not getting any responses oddly makes me feel lonlier but it's okei ig. I can manage it, right?? sorry if that sounded accusatory. I din mean it

I fr cant feel my body rnn. i hv to constantly move to feel it's real. so yea yea yea... I wanna sleep, my body is like "BITCH GO TO SLEEP. WE'RE TIRED OF OVERTIME." but my brain is anxious af. i'm so so so tired mannn...

What should I do? Kinda need help here....
I'm sorry if im a bother tho...

thx gng<3

Modafinil is good for studying and exams too if recommend you use this rather than caffeine it negates most of the negatives of caffeine I find personally and is a study drug. Depending on caffeine leads to severe highs and lows tiredness and highperness headaches heart palpitations. Anyhow modafinil is more stable energy flow and is one of the best study drugs available would be good for your exam. Anyhow make sure too take a break rest and get good food regardless this is most important and will leave you the most functional for your exam take a break from studying if you need to and rest your mind needs time to process information regardless you will do better in your exam in this way having processed the information you studied being well rested and fed
Taking a rest and good food now and letting go or disconnecting from whatever is stressing you will be more productive than actually studying for better results if you are feeling this way

Man, im so tired rn. I slept at 5 am. i stayed up all night for no reason. I've lost my "Stay calm and take it easy" streak. I feel guilty abt giving others the advice to relax and take it slow even though i couldnt do it myself. i'm so sleep deprived rn. im hving memory fog. i dun remember most easy to remember things. i dun remember eating dinner, or going to sleep day before yesterday. I dun remember what all i really did yesterday. Ik studying rn wont help me at all. But i seriously dunno anything frm my econ syllabus. I'd end up crying if i give my exam in this state.
I dun wanna drink energy drinks or coffee rn cuz sleep deprivation + caffeine just makes you jitter. like your brain is sleeping but heart is running a mile a second. I kinda regret it. No no, I completely regret it. i dunno mannn... I kinda am start to see shyt. while staring at the ceiling last night, i saw silver-ish confetti things floating around. that's a sign of severe SD. I kinda am panicking internally. I tried to call my dad to talk it out with him (my therapist also told me to be open with one of my parents because i've kinda closed myself off recently and stopped talking abt my worst of issues all together). My dad din pick up. He's prolly busy rn.

Time is ticking and each second makes me more sleep and anxious. I kinda am hoping for a crash so that i can skip the exam. but that's not th eright mindset. im gonna talk it out with my parents, though it scares me. not them, but opening up scares me. so yea, im here cuz im anon so i dun hv to worry much (i still worry. i think 100000 times before making a post here myself). Idk my post not getting any responses oddly makes me feel lonlier but it's okei ig. I can manage it, right?? sorry if that sounded accusatory. I din mean it

I fr cant feel my body rnn. i hv to constantly move to feel it's real. so yea yea yea... I wanna sleep, my body is like "BITCH GO TO SLEEP. WE'RE TIRED OF OVERTIME." but my brain is anxious af. i'm so so so tired mannn...

What should I do? Kinda need help here....
I'm sorry if im a bother tho...

thx gng<3

Dedicate time to rest and don't take stimulants such a caffeine during this time it will interrupt your rest and could possibly increase anxiety

 

[RyleIsRiledUp]

I wish you the best my friend I feel lonely here too it bes Quiet but eating and sleeping is important id recommend you take a break if possible and rest and get some good food and disconnect from everything that's causing you stress for at least a week and you will be alot more functional. Anyhow god bless go get some good food and have a few days rest it will also help you process your thoughts and possibly find solutions when you can take a step back

Modafinil is good for studying and exams too if recommend you use this rather than caffeine it negates most of the negatives of caffeine I find personally and is a study drug. Depending on caffeine leads to severe highs and lows tiredness and highperness headaches heart palpitations. Anyhow modafinil is more stable energy flow and is one of the best study drugs available would be good for your exam. Anyhow make sure too take a break rest and get good food regardless this is most important and will leave you the most functional for your exam take a break from studying if you need to and rest your mind needs time to process information regardless you will do better in your exam in this way having processed the information you studied being well rested and fed
Taking a rest and good food now and letting go or disconnecting from whatever is stressing you will be more productive than actually studying for better results if you are feeling this way

Dedicate time to rest and don't take stimulants such a caffeine during this time it will interrupt your rest and could possibly increase anxiety

Thx, bud<3
I do eat and hydrate myself even tho i dun want to. it's important for my body so i do it. I can't really disconnect frm all the stress rn cuz my exams aren't gon be over till end of feb or smthing. so i kinda am grinding. As for caffeine, tbh I have built a tolerance so anything abt 360mg doesnt really work on me. I just sip it for fun atp. I do hydrate myself before and after caffeine consuption because it dehydrates your body. I'm trying to cut down some intake tho. Gladly my exam postponed so I have a day extra rn. I'll try to take it easy this time.
Also, I can't take any meds without my doc's permission. I've had history with wrong meds and stuff so I dun wanna risk it. I can't even take painkillers without consultation. I hv BPD so no one in my fam want to risk anything.

 

[spacealiens]

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Thx, bud<3
I do eat and hydrate myself even tho i dun want to. it's important for my body so i do it. I can't really disconnect frm all the stress rn cuz my exams aren't gon be over till end of feb or smthing. so i kinda am grinding. As for caffeine, tbh I have built a tolerance so anything abt 360mg doesnt really work on me. I just sip it for fun atp. I do hydrate myself before and after caffeine consuption because it dehydrates your body. I'm trying to cut down some intake tho. Gladly my exam postponed so I have a day extra rn. I'll try to take it easy this time.
Also, I can't take any meds without my doc's permission. I've had history with wrong meds and stuff so I dun wanna risk it. I can't even take painkillers without consultation. I hv BPD so no one in my fam want to risk anything.

Treat yourself go to a restaurant and get some good food and maybe chill in a park or by the river or with a tree or go to bed and listen to a meditation. Anyhow sleep and rest the best you can it's most productive there's herbal teas you can get pretty much anywhere too id recommend ones with valerian in them to take and relax in bed melatonin is also good but can sometimes be more difficult to get but herbal medicine is easily available. I enjoy herbal teas with valerian and honey in them sometimes.

 

[quietbird]

My doc prescribed me meds (Zyprexa) to help me sleep but they make me extremely sleepy, wayy too hungry and nauseous. I was prescribed those before too so ik lol. My dad decided that i shouldnt take em rn cuz my exams are going on. My doc told us we can start whenever we want and himself recommended that I should start taking em after my exams are over. Also, I unfortunately couldnt go to my therapist's this saturday cuz she was on leave so I gotta wait till sat again. dw I'm getting professional help so yea. I did sleep rn for a few hrs. i still feel weird and dizzy but yea, atleast i got sm rest. i kinda get really anxious during exam season so I over do things to ensure i dun fail or smthing. Mostly I feel embarrassed if i write sm dumb answer cuz i feel like the teach who'd check it would judge me or smthing (irrational ik)
Thx for the advice tho, hun<3

You deserve a big hug — everything is going to be okay. I'm a little worried that if you don't make sleep a priority, being too tired could actually make it harder to do your best on your exams. Maybe you can try flipping your anxiety into a helpful force: let the worry about not getting enough sleep motivate you to commit to resting, instead of telling yourself it's impossible.

That dizzy feeling could be from lack of sleep, heightened anxiety, or both. Anxiety is really tough, and I'm so sorry you're feeling so much right now. It might help to look up "nervous system dysfunction" for some insight.

Remember, teachers care most about effort. They know everyone's output will vary since we all have different strengths. The good news is that you sound incredibly dedicated and focused on your exams — I truly believe you'll do really well!