VitezslavNezval
Spiegel der Nacht.š¹
- Jan 9, 2024
- 17
Hi. Life quite changed from my last post.
I still don't have much of friends, I am still struggling with my gender and got some other problems but at least I have a girlfriend now and I love her.
When I look at my life it isn't that bad afterall, but I still feel sad, emotionally empty and I hate how I look.
As I said I love my girlfriend, I never had anyone before so I really care about her, and I am also scared of loosing her or being very little emotionally expressive towards her. She's also mentally unstable and does selfharm, I know what problems she has and in my opinion there isn't much I could do about all of it than being here for her. On the other side it's quite draining because I want to be someone she can rely on, so I want to be mentally okay, but I can't do like everything is okay when it isn't.
I am not sure what to think about my life and feelings. I feel empty or emotionally flat. I want to selfharm often but I would feel terrible afterwards because I stopped selfharming three months ago and became proud of myself that I don't need to do it, but in reality i think I just started to ignore my negative emotions. It's like I am accustomed not to feel good. Sometimes I feel like I am detached from reallity.
Hope I explained my situation at least little bit understandable.
Is what I feel anyhow called?
How do I become more emotionally expressive?
Any tips how to get rid of the need of selfharm?
Thanks for any comment or advice.
I still don't have much of friends, I am still struggling with my gender and got some other problems but at least I have a girlfriend now and I love her.
When I look at my life it isn't that bad afterall, but I still feel sad, emotionally empty and I hate how I look.
As I said I love my girlfriend, I never had anyone before so I really care about her, and I am also scared of loosing her or being very little emotionally expressive towards her. She's also mentally unstable and does selfharm, I know what problems she has and in my opinion there isn't much I could do about all of it than being here for her. On the other side it's quite draining because I want to be someone she can rely on, so I want to be mentally okay, but I can't do like everything is okay when it isn't.
I am not sure what to think about my life and feelings. I feel empty or emotionally flat. I want to selfharm often but I would feel terrible afterwards because I stopped selfharming three months ago and became proud of myself that I don't need to do it, but in reality i think I just started to ignore my negative emotions. It's like I am accustomed not to feel good. Sometimes I feel like I am detached from reallity.
Hope I explained my situation at least little bit understandable.
Is what I feel anyhow called?
How do I become more emotionally expressive?
Any tips how to get rid of the need of selfharm?
Thanks for any comment or advice.
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