@Spiny Lobster, are you saying you want to go somewhere away from your home to use partial suspension?
I'm sorry you're scared. Could it be that this is not the time and not the method for you?
Yes, since home is not the ideal place to do these things. At the same time, it's more effective to do it at home.
I don't know, man. I don't want to live, that's for sure. But I'm almost too scared to die? Like, why couldn't I have not been born in the first place? Why do I have to struggle every day in the body I have? Why couldn't I have literally been anyone else?
Urgh, I can't think straight. I've been flipflopping on all my methods and places to do such methods. I need a place for my head but it ain't here. I've thought about going to a hospital, but I truly don't want to face anyone ever again after this because the humiliation and shame is unbearable.