DT2007

DT2007

reincarnation
Oct 9, 2023
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The urge is back again and stronger than before. I don't know if i will take my sn in the next couple of days but i feel a strong desire of ending this existence. It's not that ny suicidal thoughts were gone in the meantime but it was hidibg under a thin sheet of normality. I already tried to end my existence a couple of weeks ago. But failed because i took it to easy. The next time i won't fail. I got everything i need. Only my courage......... I can see the bus......but im too scared to board it. To scared of another fail.....to scared of possible pain. I don't know why that is. Last time i didn't feel pain. Just a slight discomfort that was okay. I dread the salty taste. That was hortible. Especially the burping. Why can't i just drop dead.
 
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Its good to hear from you DT seeing as its been a while since we've spoke, i still remember your SN attempt, for all those reasons such as fear of failure or pain, i suppose its natural to fear it even though its not what you experienced last time. Otherwise, i hope you'll be ok and know that you aren't alone
 
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DT2007

DT2007

reincarnation
Oct 9, 2023
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Its good to hear from you DT seeing as its been a while since we've spoke, i still remember your SN attempt, for all those reasons such as fear of failure or pain, i suppose its natural to fear it even though its not what you experienced last time. Otherwise, i hope you'll be ok and know that you aren't alone

Its good to hear from you DT seeing as its been a while since we've spoke, i still remember your SN attempt, for all those reasons such as fear of failure or pain, i suppose its natural to fear it even though its not what you experienced last time. Otherwise, i hope you'll be ok and know that you aren't alone
Thanks :)
 
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logi3535

nice while it lasted
Jan 8, 2024
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it's so worrying hearing the turmoil you must be going through, i think if you are at all conscious in the afterlife, you will almost always regret an impulsive death. I hope it all works out for you no matter what you choose, and please know that not going through with it isn't an act of weakness, suicide itself is horrifyingly difficult, nobody blames you for struggling
 
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