upset i didnt die today

[smirks00ts]

this relates to my last thread. read it if confused. but it may not be pretty.

my mental health has gotten worse. barely ate today and fell asleep out of nowhere, and my heartrate keeps speeding up. i have no one to talk to. I also keep losing people and i can barely reply to them and i wish I braved up and actually did it instead of failing.

I still have a chance tommmorw.. I can drive alone if I beg enough and its at like 3-4pm class so the university is empty. ill try (keyword: try) to steal my dad's handgun and my meds so I can overdose on them before blowing my brains out. that or ill try jumping again.

I hope I succeed.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

It's never a good feeling when you're ready to do it but can't go through with it or fail. I've been there. If these methods you have truly work for you then I hope you can find peace with them, but holy shit I wish you had something better.

 

[smirks00ts]

It's never a good feeling when you're ready to do it but can't go through with it or fail. I've been there. If these methods you have truly work for you then I hope you can find peace with them, but holy shit I wish you had something better.

I cannot at the moment. im too broke for SN at the moment and the thought of living another day until I get money for it and it arriving makes me shiver