So like i said i would update you all if I survived this attempt and report how it feelt.
To be honest i dont remember much from the day, maybe it was the alkhol that i drank or it has something to do with the paracetamol but from what i remember i didn't feel that bad.
Shortly after taking thouse pills i fell asleep, when i woke up my nose was burning like hell and I felt pretty sick.
Shorty after waking up i started puking a lot whitch mostly consisted of the water that I drank that day because i didn't eat/drink for the days before.
My liver hurt a bit but it wasn't that bad compared to other things that i experienced but maybe it would have gotten worse over time without treatment at the hospital.
Currently i feel pretty normal, bit more depressive than usualy but thats normal if you get locked up in a psychatrie only think that is a bit strange is that I get bruises far easier and they last much longer than usualy.
Now I am lockt up in an room inside the psychatrie for the next 6 weeks which i will spend prepering the next attempt.
Currently I spend much time on the deep web looking for drugs which i could try next.
Most interestingly i currently find fentanyl but its expensive which means i probably would need too start prostitution again too aford that.
Biggest problem with the deep web is that I don't know which sides are real and which are scams.
Down below i have attached an small part of the report from the doctor in whitch they wrote that I only took 20pills even though i took at least 80pills.
English version of report:
Hearing on 25 November 2025 at the GKH:
First, the doctor on duty, explained in the presence of the legal guardian that the patient had taken 20 paracetamol tablets the previous day and had initially been in the hospital. The liver values had initially been so poor that they were close to requiring a transplant. Due to the improvement in the values, the patient was then transferred to the psychiatric hospital. There, he continued to express suicidal intentions. He was cooperative but did not want to stay voluntarily. When asked about a diagnosis, Dr. stated that PTSD and depression were present and that six weeks of inpatient treatment were necessary.
To be honest i dont remember much from the day, maybe it was the alkhol that i drank or it has something to do with the paracetamol but from what i remember i didn't feel that bad.
Shortly after taking thouse pills i fell asleep, when i woke up my nose was burning like hell and I felt pretty sick.
Shorty after waking up i started puking a lot whitch mostly consisted of the water that I drank that day because i didn't eat/drink for the days before.
My liver hurt a bit but it wasn't that bad compared to other things that i experienced but maybe it would have gotten worse over time without treatment at the hospital.
Currently i feel pretty normal, bit more depressive than usualy but thats normal if you get locked up in a psychatrie only think that is a bit strange is that I get bruises far easier and they last much longer than usualy.
Now I am lockt up in an room inside the psychatrie for the next 6 weeks which i will spend prepering the next attempt.
Currently I spend much time on the deep web looking for drugs which i could try next.
Most interestingly i currently find fentanyl but its expensive which means i probably would need too start prostitution again too aford that.
Biggest problem with the deep web is that I don't know which sides are real and which are scams.
Down below i have attached an small part of the report from the doctor in whitch they wrote that I only took 20pills even though i took at least 80pills.
English version of report:
Hearing on 25 November 2025 at the GKH:
First, the doctor on duty, explained in the presence of the legal guardian that the patient had taken 20 paracetamol tablets the previous day and had initially been in the hospital. The liver values had initially been so poor that they were close to requiring a transplant. Due to the improvement in the values, the patient was then transferred to the psychiatric hospital. There, he continued to express suicidal intentions. He was cooperative but did not want to stay voluntarily. When asked about a diagnosis, Dr. stated that PTSD and depression were present and that six weeks of inpatient treatment were necessary.
