Why can't people agree to my request to not wish me a happy birthday? Honestly, that would be the best gift because then I'd finally feel like I'm being heard and understood. Instead, I'm here in bed in tears contemplating finally ending my life. A once a year greeting is entirely bullshit and I'm sure the person is completely unaware of what they set in motion. A birthday card or text can be very triggering and can make a person feel even lonelier. God, I want this to finally end. I'm miserable.
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,720
At least to me there could never be anything happy about the fact that I've managed to stay here for yet another year, so your feelings are completely understandable. Unfortunately other people can often be very insensitive.
hunterfla
Experienced
- Sep 13, 2022
- 227
I completely relate. I have told literally everyone in my life that I don't celebrate my birthday. Before, it was because it was a reminder that I'm getting older, but now it's a reminder that I'm still here another year without accomplishing shit - and still haven't figured out how to escape...or at least haven't had the courage to do so. I wish people would just understand that it's not some momentous occasion for all of us.
Ye they tell me to blow the candles and make a wish and i wish that death will be kind
hellispink
poisonous
- May 26, 2022
- 1,229
It has happened to me. No one ever wishes me happy birthday but when they do, I feel super uncomfortable. Like there is nothing good about existence or being alive whatsoever so what are they celebrating anyway, mostly are you fake. I just want to be out i dont see anything happy about being here years ahead
Obliviate
Abandon All Hope
- Aug 13, 2022
- 826
Literally my bday just passed and my abusers and people who have hurt me are wishing me a happy bday and i'm like happy where? This godforsaken evil worst day of the year.....the day I was born without my consent and bought into this ratchet world surrounded by evil humans.
milkandcoffee
Member
- Aug 8, 2022
- 35
I was having a really rough couple of months last year when my birthday rolled around. I was trying to pretend it wasn't happening, but someone at work put birthday shit all over my desk. I spent most of that day dissociated, blankly staring at the decorations. It felt so surreal, to be so miserable and wanting to ctb and being swarmed with smiles and happy birthdays and "so what are you doing to celebrate????" when I didn't feel there was anything to celebrate.
