Help Unsure of death but its the only option

[TheWorstLife]

i cant make money

i cant get a job

i cant find love

i say i dont need love, i need to find happiness in myself first but thats impossible and i crave love so much

i cant be happy

i cant have fun

i cant smoke weed to distract myself

i cant find a fun videogame for the same reason

everything is monotonous and such a tall task

i dont particularly like anything (like sasuke haha so corny ik)

i hate pain but its more fun than anything else nowadays so i wanted to try self harm

my knife is shit or im too much of a scared little weakling

i want to jump off a building but im not sure if the one im thinking of is tall enough or not or if i can even get to the roof

i wish i was in the place of the people (insert tragedies here)

i cant even cry i just sit here with a blank face feeling the pain of every emotion, feeling and thought that ive had and have every single nanosecond

distractionsss i need more distractions

 

[A_Spartan_Dead]

I hear you, my life is very much like this too.
I'm going to be homeless soon on top of everything else. when my mom with st4 cancer passes, they'll kick me out on the street after 30 years of living here. I'm hoping to ctb soon, rather than have to die on the streets.

 

[Bat12]

i cant make money

i cant get a job

i cant find love

i say i dont need love, i need to find happiness in myself first but thats impossible and i crave love so much

i cant be happy

i cant have fun

i cant smoke weed to distract myself

i cant find a fun videogame for the same reason

everything is monotonous and such a tall task

i dont particularly like anything (like sasuke haha so corny ik)

i hate pain but its more fun than anything else nowadays so i wanted to try self harm

my knife is shit or im too much of a scared little weakling

i want to jump off a building but im not sure if the one im thinking of is tall enough or not or if i can even get to the roof

i wish i was in the place of the people (insert tragedies here)

i cant even cry i just sit here with a blank face feeling the pain of every emotion, feeling and thought that ive had and have every single nanosecond

distractionsss i need more distractions

if you really aren't sure what you want to do my best advice would be to get a plane ticket for somewhere far away, experience life from other perspectives, find yourself a little. If you still feel the same, well…..

 

[interna]

if you really aren't sure what you want to do my best advice would be to get a plane ticket for somewhere far away, experience life from other perspectives, find yourself a little. If you still feel the same, well…..

"get a plane ticket"? they just said they have no money. not looking for an argument but come on.

 

[Bat12]

"get a plane ticket"? they just said they have no money. not looking for an argument but come on.

Yeah I apologise I should have mentioned the money front initially, after I posted it I was expecting that response.

When I turned 18 my high street bank immediately offered me £2,000, albeit at 29% APR, and that was before credit cards, other bank accounts etc. Things can be sold, things can be done, if you want it enough you will reach for it and it's mildly effortless. In this day and age money has never been easier to obtain.

Unless you have people dependent on you, I find not having money a bad excuse. So say he takes out a loan, if he finds that he doesn't want to go through with his original thoughts, the head-space will be there to get back on track with his life. If he doesn't, well, you know where that's going and the loans gone too.

 

[TheWorstLife]

if you really aren't sure what you want to do my best advice would be to get a plane ticket for somewhere far away, experience life from other perspectives, find yourself a little. If you still feel the same, well…..

i mean.. i dont have money and never have

Yeah I apologise I should have mentioned the money front initially, after I posted it I was expecting that response.

When I turned 18 my high street bank immediately offered me £2,000, albeit at 29% APR, and that was before credit cards, other bank accounts etc. Things can be sold, things can be done, if you want it enough you will reach for it and it's mildly effortless. In this day and age money has never been easier to obtain.

Unless you have people dependent on you, I find not having money a bad excuse. So say he takes out a loan, if he finds that he doesn't want to go through with his original thoughts, the head-space will be there to get back on track with his life. If he doesn't, well, you know where that's going and the loans gone too.

sorry didnt get to read this yet. right now, im trying to apply for welfare which im gonna do around the end of the month which is when apparently im off my dads file (finally its been months) but either way if i get welfare checks, im still a loser sitting in his room just smoking weed to not feel AS bad

 

[Bat12]

i mean.. i dont have money and never have

sorry didnt get to read this yet. right now, im trying to apply for welfare which im gonna do around the end of the month which is when apparently im off my dads file (finally its been months) but either way if i get welfare checks, im still a loser sitting in his room just smoking weed to not feel AS bad

What age are you if you don't mind me asking?

 

[TheWorstLife]

What age are you if you don't mind me asking?

18 right now

 

[Bat12]

18 right now

At your age, I was in a similar position doing f all with myself. I applied for Uni, maxed out my student loan and just lived a little. Maybe you think you don't have the grades/or social skills for that etc but nowadays places will accept ANYONE.

I still follow the same mentality towards suicide but oh my, it was the best thing I ever done. Can't save everyone but it's definitely a starting point if you are unsure and wanting to experience some life a little first. have you ever thought about this option?

 

[Sadbanana]

I'm in very similar situation as you describe. I don't know you personally maybe there still is some hope for you. But I can relate to everything you say.

But if you really are like me I would say death really might the only option. It's not a good option per say, but if the alternative is slowly dying inside over several more decades, until there nothing but hollow shell, maybe death might not be that bad.

I hear you, my life is very much like this too.
I'm going to be homeless soon on top of everything else. when my mom with st4 cancer passes, they'll kick me out on the street after 30 years of living here. I'm hoping to ctb soon, rather than have to die on the streets.

I'm really sorry that this is happening to you. I hope you will be alright.

 

[TheWorstLife]

At your age, I was in a similar position doing f all with myself. I applied for Uni, maxed out my student loan and just lived a little. Maybe you think you don't have the grades/or social skills for that etc but nowadays places will accept ANYONE.

I still follow the same mentality towards suicide but oh my, it was the best thing I ever done. Can't save everyone but it's definitely a starting point if you are unsure and wanting to experience some life a little first. have you ever thought about this option?

yeah but it feels like it wouldnt help, i would still hate my life with work, i dont have my high school yet, i dont have anything to my name im 18 and nothing to show for it