Venting Unique waking-up experience?

[grandmotherboxing]

I'm used to crying myself to sleep, even if I am raging or scream-crying (or trying my best to muffle it, walls are not that thick in this apartment complex), but I've never had this experience where after I wake up I immediately continue into a fit of rage? I'm still feeling adrenaline pulsing through me and I'm trying to get it out through compulsive scribomania. I know this might sound bad but I feel like I have enough energy to kill everyone in this building and then myself, Chris Benoit style. Dear GOD I have no exit. I know that I'm eventually gonna be expelled even from here just because I am too blunt and people are NOT STRAIGHTFORWARD ENOUGH WITH ME which is the REASON that I KEEP FUCKING UP relationships.

 

[vig919]

Wake up angry every single morning.

 

[grandmotherboxing]

Wake up angry every single morning.

I might start too. I'm used to cooling off in the morning and waiting for it to come back when I hit a bump

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

Lately I've noticed I wake up more or less fine and the coffee and vaping drive me to despair. It's hard when I have responsibilities to meet but I think I might be able to recover if I could just get to zero recreational drugs.

Abilify seems to be helping.

 

[astr4]

i wake up screaming a lot. keening. it's fucking weird. i suspect they're night terrors because i can't remember anything, it doesn't seem like a nightmare. but in my half awake state im distinctly aware oh im screaming right now huh.

 

[vig919]

i wake up screaming a lot. keening. it's fucking weird. i suspect they're night terrors because i can't remember anything, it doesn't seem like a nightmare. but in my half awake state im distinctly aware oh im screaming right now huh.

I'll wake myself up usually by saying something crazy out loud from my dream... which is usually some vivid lucid dream about past trauma. Having CPTSD is something I would never wish on someone.

 

[58Alice85]

I used to have these mini-hallucinations when waking when i was in psychosis.
Like I would wake up to a fish-like creature biting tiny pieces of my fingers off.
Or straight up being raped then scream and realise im awake and nothing is happening except this cursed brain of mine