Haematemesis
Student
- Jan 12, 2025
- 175
It's been some 1-2 months since uni opened. In the beginning it was perfect. Big friend groups and people casually chatting and hanging out. I was not an outcast.
Then slowly some people started to form inner groups as expected. I had a small group and it felt good.
People from my group chat with people from other groups. Except for me. I learnt from many people that other people hate me. I have done nothing wrong. I was a bit overly talkative in the first week because of my fear of not being seen but that's it. Now I have 1-2 friends at best and others are not neutral but hateful towards me.
We had a male friend in our group who was chill and whatnot. He was a handsome fella. But we learnt that he liked a girl from the same group. We had lots of embarrassing stuff because of that guy. Then we collectively kicked him out of the group because it was too much. Today I learnt that he's back.
He tried to verbally force that girl into some not so friendly activities. But hey it's alright! He apologized after weeks and he's attractive right?!
On the other hand I'm disgusting because I talk too much.
Honestly fuck this shit, I'm not even trying anymore. Substances will either save me from this pain or cast me into hell. I don't mind.
Thanks for reading.
Then slowly some people started to form inner groups as expected. I had a small group and it felt good.
People from my group chat with people from other groups. Except for me. I learnt from many people that other people hate me. I have done nothing wrong. I was a bit overly talkative in the first week because of my fear of not being seen but that's it. Now I have 1-2 friends at best and others are not neutral but hateful towards me.
We had a male friend in our group who was chill and whatnot. He was a handsome fella. But we learnt that he liked a girl from the same group. We had lots of embarrassing stuff because of that guy. Then we collectively kicked him out of the group because it was too much. Today I learnt that he's back.
He tried to verbally force that girl into some not so friendly activities. But hey it's alright! He apologized after weeks and he's attractive right?!
On the other hand I'm disgusting because I talk too much.
Honestly fuck this shit, I'm not even trying anymore. Substances will either save me from this pain or cast me into hell. I don't mind.
Thanks for reading.
