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ilovecats

ilovecats

Empty Husk
Feb 1, 2023
128
The closer I get to the deadline, the worse I feel. I've thought about going on the 19th. When I made my decision, my mind was clear and I was sure that ctb was something I want, but now I feel horrible. Can't think straight. I don't know what I want anymore, like I'm stretched between my subconscious telling me to recover and my logical self telling me to ctb. I don't know what to do. I'm stressed all the time, all my thoughts are "fuzzy" and I can barely sleep since I randomly wake up with a very rapid hearth rate. I'm truly lost.

Does anyone know a way to get over it? It would be very helpful.
 
man_in_red:)

man_in_red:)

Wandering with no destination
Mar 27, 2023
88
Natural fear, emotions over powering your logic. Try some suppressants like alcohol and distract yourself.
 

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