Venting Unable to vent

[Like_the_Angel]

I've just come out from second clinic attempt, i also found "friends" there but things got worse than before
Now i have new ppl with problems I gotta listen to and look strong to be helpful

I have to fake everything with everyone, parents, my nephew, my closest friend, those new ppl, but I would like to talk freely for once, I'm struggling i can't get over my depression and my brother's death I think of dying every minute of the day, i still have my special night in mind as planned years and years ago

I'm really going out of mind so i just needed to return here and venting about all this situation, I'm not asking for help but just a space to let everything out