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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
The only media I can consume is about CTB. Anything positive or upbeat or inspiring just makes me feel worse. Anyone relate?
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,589
In my case, I do not enjoy anything, I just do things like watching the TV to pass the time. It makes me feel empty when I see happy people. Those types of people are annoying. There is nothing to be positive about in a world as horrible as this. I struggle to concentrate as well. There is no point to my life, it is a very depressing existence.
 
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Death is beautiful

Death is beautiful

Warlock
May 20, 2021
792
I certainly relate to this
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
2,707
Anything I used to really love and enjoy now causes me intense pain. Books, films, interests. It all hurts.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Anything I used to really love and enjoy now causes me intense pain. Books, films, interests. It all hurts.

It is a painful reminder of all the things that we used to love But are now empty…
 
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Crimsonghost3

Member
Nov 14, 2021
79
Reading was my first thing to go I haven't been able to read in year. Movies slowly went next and now music is going. I throw on tv shows or YouTube e for any noise or distraction but I can't seem to make it through a movie and most the time after a few songs I just stop it
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Reading was my first thing to go I haven't been able to read in year. Movies slowly went next and now music is going. I throw on tv shows or YouTube e for any noise or distraction but I can't seem to make it through a movie and most the time after a few songs I just stop it
Are you able to watch or read about CTB??
 
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Crimsonghost3

Member
Nov 14, 2021
79
Eh depends read no I barely make it through long paragraphs on here I wouldn't make it through a book. Watching it depends if its real and isn't on the side of go get help I guess but I find most depictions of it I don't relate to. I don't find a lot of things honest about the real pain loneliness or hopelessness that really consumes me so I end up worse off from it.
 
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blueclover_.

blueclover_.

Better Never to Have Been: 2006, David Benatar
Oct 11, 2021
668
My life has always been dependant on music. Once it's no longer enjoyable, i will go.
 
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Atraxa

Atraxa

Priced out of living
Oct 24, 2021
46
I tried reading the other day but my brain just couldn't process the words. All I can do when I'm not working is listen to music, drink and pass time on random chat sites. Just enough to occupy myself so the tears and the feeling of my stomach being crushed doesn't surface.
 
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